Chapter 2256 Back to the Beginning

Xiao Xiao moved the coffee in front of the man away.

Pushed another cup in front of the man.

"Chocolate milk tea."

Xiao Xiao smiled.

……

The man was stunned for a moment.

Then he reached out.

He just found out.

My fingers were trembling slightly.

He clenched his five fingers tightly.

……

The rich aroma of chocolate milk tea hits your nose.

The sweet smell seemed to make even the air a little softer.

His hands slowly grasped the enamel cup.

Carefully and slowly, he raised the glass.

The rich chocolate milk tea slides down my throat.

The slight warmth dispelled the coldness in his limbs.

His expression softened a bit.

"……Thanks."

It was not until this moment that he realized how great it was that he was willing to talk.

……

"When I was a little older, I finally understood..."

The man smiled bitterly.

He stroked the wall of the cup with his fingers and looked down at his face reflected in the chocolate milk tea.

In a trance, he seemed to see the pale and immature face from more than 20 years ago.

There was not a trace of liveliness in the child's unique big dark eyes.

He could no longer remember what these eyes originally looked like.

In his memory, these eyes have always been like this...dark, empty and full of fear.

Even now, not much has changed.

“It turns out that they can’t see…”

……

The man let out a long breath.

"How stupid am I..."

"It's been so long..."

“After going through so much hardship, I realized…”

"If only we had discovered it earlier..."

Everything will change.

Mom and Dad are still the same as they were at the beginning.

He won't drop out of school.

He will not be excluded by others and become a lonely person.

He wouldn't be...that afraid of the hospital.

His past... had no unpleasant memories.

Everything will be fine.

At least it won't be worse than he is now.

……

"When I finally realized what the problem was..."

The man opened his mouth and took a few breaths, "Do you know?"

"Those terrible experiences... my parents' indifference... the alienation from my classmates and friends... I was always alone... None of these... could defeat me."

"Although it was just a little bit..."

"But once I realized I could have avoided this..."

"As long as I pretend I didn't see it...as long as I act normal..."

"It's simple, isn't it?"

The veins on the back of the man's hand crisscrossed, just like his troubled and depressed heart at the moment.

"It's such a simple thing, I never found it, I never did it..."

The man's chest heaved violently and his breathing became even heavier.

"At that time..."

The man clutched his clothes on his chest, "The remorse in my heart... almost knocked me down."

……

"hu~hu~"

The man propped his forehead with the back of his hand.

My whole body is shaking.

"I……"

"I want to beat myself up."

"I wish I could turn back time..."

"I……"

The man's eyes were burning.

Everything in front of my eyes became blurry.

……

“It wasn’t too late to find out later.”

Xiao Xiao's voice was gentle.

The mixture of coffee aroma and chocolate milk tea aroma makes people more relaxed.

……

"……Do not."

The man's voice was hoarse and choked with sobs.

"late."

"Even though... I later realized what the problem was..." "But it was too late..."

"I haven't been normal for too long..."

"Even though I seemed to be back to normal later, no one knew if I would relapse..."

"and……"

"Not only them, they are used to treating me as a mentally ill person..."

“I don’t know how to get along with them normally.”

"Do not."

"How did we get back to the original relationship?"

"Even if I return to normal..."

He is still as silent and taciturn as before.

There is no difference from before.

He couldn't join in the family's jokes.

He is like a transparent person.

His family members also habitually ignored his existence.
He didn't know how to break this situation.

"I'm not that handy..."

Because of that experience, it seemed that everyone was hostile to him, and he kept his distance from everyone.

He no longer knows how to approach someone or how to express his kindness.

Even if the other person is your family.

He hesitated where he was.

No one was willing to lend him a hand.

Including his family.

and so……

"It's too late..."

"Even if I found out..."

"Nothing can be changed..."

"Puff~"

There was a light splash of water on the chocolate milk tea.

Ripples spread out.

His face was so broken that it was hard to see clearly.

……

The man froze.

But he dared not take any action.

He held on to the lucky thought that if he kept his head down, the other party wouldn't be able to notice his current predicament.

……

"It can be changed."

Xiao Xiao smiled.

……

The man blinked.

A few more splashes of water appeared in the cup.

……

"As long as you have the desire to change, you can change."

"…Maybe it's just a cliché."

Xiao Xiao also knows that everyone understands the truth, but...

Knowing is one thing, actually doing it is another.

"But instead of being pessimistic, it is better to take positive actions."

“You don’t have to change too much all at once.”

"A little at a time."

"Even if you can't change your family's fixed ideas in a short time, or for a long time, you can still make new friends."

“You just have to live your life the way you want to live it.”

"One day, your family will notice the change in you."

"Your relationship will slowly get better."

……

The man raised his head and looked at Xiao Xiao.

The eyes are red.

There was a hint of confusion in his expression.

……

"Since you don't know how to face your family, then don't face them for now."

Xiao Xiao's eyebrows curved slightly.

"Don't force yourself."

Because his heart has always been haunted by the shadow of the past, Wei Xinhai's performance may not have changed much in the eyes of his family.

Wei Xinhai's image has always been like the child who was in the hospital at that time, pale, gloomy and silent.

The more he cares about his family, the more cautious he becomes.

But why should we be so cautious about family relationships?
Didn't his cautiousness invisibly distance him from his family?
……

“Actions often speak louder than words.”

It's the same old story again.

Xiao Xiao raised the corner of his mouth.

"Over time, your family will naturally understand your changes."

……

"can you?"

A faint light appeared in the man's eyes.

Because he knew that it was his negligence that caused his family to misunderstand him.

That's why he always felt unwilling in his heart.

He wanted to make up for his mistakes.

He wanted to go back to the beginning.
(End of this chapter)