Chapter 775: Heart disease is difficult to cure (Part )

"The princess is so concerned about her country that she forgets herself. I admire her so much!"

Pan Yuyin suddenly stood up and kowtowed to Zhao Xin to express her inner respect.

"You don't have to admire me. I just can't help myself." Zhao Xin forced a smile, but did not hide her true thoughts. "If I could decide my own fate, I would never let myself be so embarrassed..."

"Princess……"

Looking at Zhao Xin's tearful face, Pan Yuyin felt heartbroken, but she could do nothing but shed tears.

"Miss Pan, you only guessed half of it." Zhao Xin changed the subject and said disheartenedly, "I know my fate and accept it. Although I am depressed, I will not expect the world to turn around. Therefore, what really makes me sad and miserable is not the pity for myself, nor the fear of the future, but..."

Having said this, Zhao Xin's voice stopped abruptly, as if she had not yet decided whether to tell Pan Yuyin her secret.

"And what is it?" Pan Yuyin stared with eyes full of surprise and curiosity, and asked impatiently, "Since Princess is willing to sacrifice for the country, why did you change your mind on the way? What is the knot in your heart?"

"Miss Pan, can I... trust you?"

Faced with Zhao Xin's unreasonable questions, Pan Yuyin couldn't help but be stunned. She silently looked at her miserable and panicked girl. Suddenly, a strong feeling of pity arose in Pan Yuyin's heart.

The princess of the Song Dynasty was born into a family of nobility and wealth, enjoying endless wealth and servants. She was truly a princess of the royal family, living a carefree life since she was young. She lived a life of luxury and carefreeness, and should have been the envy of the world. However, now she is like a willow catkin swaying in the wind. She is not only not happy, but also like a puppet at the mercy of others, without any resistance.

It's pitiful, sad, lamentable, but also respectable.

I thought that the royal family and dignitaries would be surrounded by people wherever they went. But the reality is that the princess, who is honored as a daughter of a rich family, is now like a lonely person, with no one around her who can be trusted, let alone a friend with whom she can confide.

Even when facing Pan Yuyin, who was young and simple-minded, she had to ask cautiously, "Can I trust you?"

Being a princess in such an awkward situation where she has to be cautious and timid, how could it not be pitiful?
"Princess, you can trust me." Pan Yuyin suppressed her inner grief and said word by word, "If the princess does not abandon me, I am willing to speak to you freely and treat you with all my heart."

After saying this, Pan Yuyin raised her hand and swore righteously: "I, Pan Yuyin, swear to heaven that if I do anything that is not good for the princess in the future, I will be struck by lightning and die a miserable death..."

"Miss Pan, you don't have to do this!" Zhao Xin's face changed slightly, and she quickly interrupted, "I am very happy that you have such intention. Although we have never met before, I don't know why? I feel like I have known you for a long time, as if you are a close friend given to me by God."

"Why shouldn't I be as kind to the princess as before?" Pan Yuyin was so moved that she burst into tears and nodded repeatedly.

"It's rare, it's really rare! It's rare that I can meet a friend like you when I'm about to leave." Zhao Xin seemed to be crying with joy. She personally helped Pan Yuyin up and said sadly, "As the old saying goes, 'It's a pity that beautiful women always have a short life, and the emperor's family is the most ruthless.' Although I was born in a prominent family and have no worries about food and clothing, my real life is far from as comfortable as outsiders see. From childhood to adulthood, I have been accustomed to the intrigues in the court and the deceptions between people. Fighting for fame and fortune, they will do anything. Therefore, when I was in Lin'an, I hardly dared to trust anyone. Even when facing the emperor... I had to say something that was not what I meant. For so many years, except for looking for clothes... I hardly told anyone what was in my heart."

"Princess……"

"You are not only Xunyi's friend, but also Xunyi's legitimate wife. What reason do I have not to believe you?" Zhao Xin's eyes were complicated, and she kept muttering, "I also know a little about you and Xunyi. He is willing to take risks for you and your Pan family. It is enough to show that in Xunyi's heart, your family is all good people, and you are worthy of him standing up for you. Therefore, I also believe in the people Xunyi believes in."

Pan Yuyin didn't know who Zhao Xin was talking to. Maybe she was telling Pan Yuyin her attitude, or maybe she was just trying to make it easier for herself. But no matter what, Zhao Xin chose to believe Pan Yuyin, which was very important.

"I am really worried about the princess's health. Brother Liu is also extremely worried." Pan Yuyin suppressed her anxiety and said in a gentle and persuasive manner, "If the princess cannot speak out her worries, how can I heal her?"

"I... can tell you." Zhao Xin took a deep breath, hesitated for a while, and finally spoke slowly, "My biggest worry is... I can't let go of Xunyi."

"This..." Pan Yuyin frowned, as if she didn't understand Zhao Xin's deep meaning, and asked suspiciously, "Could it be that you are reluctant to let go of Brother Liu?"

"It's not reluctance, but worry."

"Worried?" "Yes!" Zhao Xin nodded thoughtfully, "To this day, I have done my best for the Song Dynasty, the emperor, the common people, and my deceased parents... I cannot shirk my mission as a member of the royal family, and I can do nothing wrong. Now, the only person I feel sorry for is Xun Yi."

At this point, Zhao Xin couldn't help but burst into tears. She looked at Pan Yuyin, who was at a loss, with a look of grief and said with a sad smile: "Miss Pan, I... really envy you."

Zhao Xin's words were full of profound meaning, which immediately made Pan Yuyin's heart tremble, and she was overwhelmed with sadness and emotion.

"Princess...why are you worried about Brother Liu?"

"The incident at Weizhou Inn made me realize how dangerous the martial world is and how unpredictable life and death are." Zhao Xin recalled, "Before that, although I knew that Xunyi had caused great trouble in the martial world and that many people wanted to take his life, I had never felt it as directly, strongly, and terribly as it was at Weizhou Inn. That night, I truly saw how desperate Xunyi's situation was. I used to sneer at the martial arts hunting order, thinking it was just a trick by a group of unruly people. But now... I know it is no joke."

"Princess……"

"Right now, Xunyi is carrying out the emperor's order, and he is guarded by masters from Song and Mongolia, but those people in the martial arts world still dare to set up an ambush without scruples. What kind of danger will he face if he is alone one day?" Zhao Xin was worried, and her tone became more and more uneasy. "These people in the martial arts world have no respect for the king's law, despise the court, kill and burn as they please, and are not bound by any power at all. At the Weizhou Inn, if the Mongolian soldiers had not arrived in time, if I had not stepped forward to stop Long Yu, I am afraid Xunyi..."

"Princess, Brother Liu is a skilled martial artist, brave and wise, and will never be easily harmed by those villains." At this moment, Pan Yuyin was also very upset, and could only comfort him with forced words, "Princess, don't worry too much..."

"I'm not only worried about Xunyi's current situation, but also his future life." Zhao Xin continued, "Xunyi has a bold and generous temperament, he doesn't care about trivial matters, he's normal on weekdays, but once he encounters something that touches his bottom line, he can't help but be impulsive and reckless... In the past, I was his bond, always by his side, giving him many instructions, and he knew to be restrained and forbearing out of consideration for my feelings. But I'm about to marry into Mongolia, Xunyi's greatest sorrow is the death of his heart, although he hasn't shown too much abnormality at the moment, but who can guarantee that after I leave, he can control his emotions? Will he take the initiative to find those people in the martial arts world to end things because he is heartbroken? Will he become depressed like I am today, or even... commit suicide?"

Zhao Xin's words instantly awakened Pan Yuyin from her confused mind. She frowned and thought hard for a long time. She could not deny it and said, "The princess's concerns are not unreasonable."

Seeing that Pan Yuyin felt the same way, Zhao Xin's eyes quietly flashed with a trace of relief, and she stammered: "Miss Pan, can I... ask you for a favor? If you agree, my heart disease... may be cured without medicine."

"No matter what the princess orders, I will obey her without hesitation."

"Speaking of which, it's an unreasonable request..."

"Princess, please don't be shy. Please speak frankly."

"Okay then!" Zhao Xin smiled and nodded slowly, "Miss Pan, you and Xunyi were married in the past. Whether you are a real couple or not, it is a rare fate."

Zhao Xin's words were like knives, shocking Pan Yuyin and cutting her already scarred heart again. She added, "Xun Yi and I are not destined to be together. I just hope that when I'm not with him, there will be a caring and kind person who will care for him, accompany him, and remind him, or even... take care of him for me. Miss Pan, can you... promise me?"

"This……"

Zhao Xin's words shocked Pan Yuyin so much that she was unable to recover for a long time.

"Now, I am not ordering you as a princess, but begging you as... a friend." Zhao Xin's face was covered with tears, but she still tried her best to keep smiling, saying intermittently, "I know that my request is very absurd, very rude, very selfish and even very mean, but you and I are both women. You can see that I am reluctant to let Xunyi go, and I can also see that your feelings for Xunyi... are not as simple as friends. Miss Pan, although you and I have only met once, my intuition tells me that only by entrusting Xunyi to you... can I leave with peace of mind."

"Princess……"

At this moment, Pan Yuyin's heart was filled with mixed feelings. She wanted to say no, but when she saw Zhao Xin's sincere eyes full of desire, she couldn't say the words that came to her lips.

In the chaos, Pan Yuyin thought secretly in her heart: "She is a princess of the Song Dynasty. She sacrificed her life for the Han people and endured humiliation. If I can't even agree to this small request, how can I be worthy of her efforts for the people of the world? As for Brother Liu... I should repay him..."

At least, that's how Pan Yuyin convinced herself on the surface.

Thinking of this, the flustered Pan Yuyin made up her mind, bowed three times to Zhao Xin respectfully, and promised with a trembling voice: "I will obey the princess's order. Before Brother Liu finds a true confidante, I will always... take care of him for the princess."

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(End of this chapter)