Chapter 774: Heart disease is difficult to cure (I)

As soon as Pan Yuyin said this, Zhao Xin's smile froze instantly, and the curiosity in her eyes gradually dissipated, replaced by a look of scrutiny and suspicion.

Pan Yuyin's face seemed to be uncomfortable being stared at by Zhao Xin. She changed color and subconsciously rubbed her hands in her sleeves to ease her inner anxiety.

"Heart disease?" Zhao Xin's eyes were like lightning, as if she could see through Pan Yuyin's heart. She said without joy or anger, "In your opinion, am I pretending to be sick?"

"I have absolutely no such intention!"

Pan Yuyin was horrified and fell to her knees with a plop. Her delicate body trembled uncontrollably due to her panic.

"What I mean is that the princess is worried too much, and it's hard to relieve her depression, so she has been ill for a long time." Pan Yuyin was terrified and explained quickly, "No matter how good the medicine is, it can only regulate the body, but it can't eradicate the knot in the heart. If the knot in the heart is not removed, the depression will be difficult to eliminate, making the princess unable to sleep and eat, and damaging her own energy, spirit, and spirit. In the long run, not only will the princess's condition not get better, but it will... get worse."

Perhaps she was convinced by Pan Yuyin's explanation, or she couldn't bear to see her frightened look, but Zhao Xin's brows relaxed, her eyes gradually softened, and she weakly ordered, "You are not guilty, stand up!"

"Thank you princess!"

Pan Yuyin stood up timidly, and with lowered eyebrows and eyes stole a glance at Zhao Xin who seemed to be in deep thought, and added cautiously: "Although mental illness is invisible, it is more difficult to cure than any other disease in the world. The root cause is that the people who are sick...most of them dare not admit it, and even if they admit it, they dare not face it. Therefore, whether the prescription can be effective or not is not my wishful thinking, but it is up to the princess to decide."

"Actually... you're right." After a long silence, Zhao Xin, who was struggling with her heart, finally spoke slowly, "I do have a knot in my heart that is hard to untie. You can see through the root of my illness at a glance, which is indeed far better than other doctors. It's a pity that although you can see that I have a heart disease... there is no medicine to cure it."

"I just said that heart disease must be cured with heart medicine." Pan Yuyin said tremblingly, "As long as Princess dares to face her own heart knot, I will do my best to help you heal it."

Facing Pan Yuyin's encouragement, Zhao Xin smiled bitterly and shook her head slowly: "You can't treat it, and I can't tell..."

"May I ask Princess, could your worry be related to...Brother Liu?" Pan Yuyin mustered up her courage and risked her life to speak out what was in her mind.

Hearing this, Zhao Xin was stunned again, her eyes filled with surprise, and at the same time, a hint of vigilance.

"you……"

"Since the princess is unwilling to speak frankly, I will just let this humble girl make some bold guesses." Pan Yuyin held her breath and concentrated, then continued, "As I expected, the princess and Brother Liu... should have been a pair of lovers. Unfortunately, bad luck and fate played tricks on them. The marriage between Song and Mongolia forced the princess to marry far away in Helin, which ruined her good relationship. She is...dead as ashes."

"Who are you exactly?"

Zhao Xin was shocked beyond words, but she didn't dare to show any abnormality on the surface. She was afraid of Pan Yuyin, who had an unknown origin, and was worried that her secret would be discovered by others. If it got to the ears of the Mongols, if it was taken out of context by someone with ulterior motives, if her future husband would be upset, the consequences would be disastrous.

Thinking of this, Zhao Xin looked at Pan Yuyin with more caution and said in a deep voice: "You just said that you are Xunyi's friend, but why have I never seen you before? What's your name?"

Pan Yuyin's legs went limp with fear, and she knelt on the ground again, answering truthfully: "My name is Pan Yuyin, and I am from Yingchuan. I am a student of Granny Taohua, the 'world's best doctor'. I am a friend that Brother Liu made when he was in Prince Xian's mansion, so it's not surprising that the princess has never seen me."

"Pan Yuyin?"

Zhao Xindai frowned slightly, and after a moment's thought, she suddenly realized what was going on. Her eyes were instantly filled with astonishment, and she exclaimed, "You are Pan Yuyin?"

"Does the princess know me?" Pan Yuyin was stunned, and became more and more nervous.

"No, I just... have heard of your name." Zhao Xin was confused and spoke in a complicated tone, "Pan Yuyin, raise your head, let me... look at you."

"Yes."

Pan Yuyin did not dare to disobey Zhao Xin's order. She raised her head tremblingly, her eyes wandering, as if she did not dare to look Zhao Xin in the eye.

Zhao Xin slowly sat up straight, looking up and down at the bewildered Pan Yuyin with hesitant eyes, then suddenly moved closer to her, gently lifted Pan Yuyin's chin with her hand, and gently turned her face, as if she wanted to see every inch of Pan Yuyin's skin clearly.

Pan Yuyin was so nervous that she dared not move. Her eyes were slightly narrowed and she bit her lower lip with her pearly teeth, allowing Zhao Xin to manipulate and examine her unscrupulously.

"Miss Pan is naturally beautiful, gentle, well-spoken, and has superb medical skills. She is not only a beautiful woman, but also a rare talent."

While she was talking, Zhao Xin's soft and boneless hand suddenly slid down and gently held Pan Yuyin's sweaty hand, which immediately made her heart tighten and her body stiffen. Before she could react, Zhao Xin had already led her to sit down by her bed. "Miss Pan, don't be nervous. I have no ill intentions." Zhao Xin looked at Pan Yuyin, who was sitting on pins and needles, with gentle eyes and comforted her, "I looked at you because I wanted to see clearly what kind of beauty the woman who had married Xun Yi was?"

"hiss!"

Pan Yuyin had already guessed Zhao Xin's feelings for Liu Xunyi, so when she heard her remarks, her face changed. She wanted to stand up and kneel, but was stopped by Zhao Xin.

"Don't worry, I... really want to see you, and I have no intention of blaming you." Having said this, Zhao Xin's expression suddenly darkened, and she said self-deprecatingly, "Besides, I have no right to blame you..."

"Princess, Brother Liu and I are just pretending to be a couple. He pretended to marry me to help our Pan family get through the difficult times." Pan Yuyin hurriedly explained, "In fact, the person Brother Liu really likes is you. You are the most important woman in his heart..."

"I know." Zhao Xin smiled sadly, "But now, I don't want to be the most important woman in his heart. Xunyi and I are not destined to be together. I just hope he can forget me as soon as possible... Moreover, we have made it clear that we will bury our feelings for each other deep in our hearts and never mention them again."

"If you never mention it again, how could the princess become depressed?" As a woman, Pan Yuyin felt very sympathetic to Zhao Xin's experience. Now she saw that she was approachable and not like the arrogant and unruly princess she had imagined. Her fear of her gradually dissipated, and her words became more sincere. "Princess, do you know why you have been ill for so long?"

"Why?"

"Because you don't want to reach Karakorum, you don't want to make peace with Mongolia, you don't want your life to come to an end, and you don't want to end your relationship with Brother Liu and go your separate ways from now on." Pan Yuyin felt pity and couldn't help but shed tears. "I dare to speculate that the princess's worries come from two sources. One is the reluctance to leave today, and the other is the fear of tomorrow. Because of this, you would rather endure the pain, stay in bed, and suffer from a long-term illness... You just want to delay it for a day, and set off a day later..."

Pan Yuyin's words were like a sharp sword, piercing Zhao Xin's soft spot, making it difficult for her to hide her inner sadness, and two lines of tears flowed silently.

"Princess, the person who tied the bell must untie it. Since this matter is related to Brother Liu, why don't you open your heart to him..."

"No!" Before Pan Yuyin finished speaking, Zhao Xin suddenly changed her expression and said without question, "This is absolutely not allowed!"

"Why?" Pan Yuyin asked puzzledly, "Is the princess worried that Brother Liu won't help you?"

"No!" Zhao Xin was in agony and shook her head repeatedly, "I'm worried that he wants to help me too much, and that my heart, which has finally settled down, will be disturbed again... I would rather bear everything alone than let Xunyi waver..."

"Princess, do you really understand Brother Liu?" Pan Yuyin smiled with tears in her eyes. "Brother Liu... has never been determined to give up on you. He doesn't want the other person to worry, just like you, so he pretends to be strong in front of you. Otherwise, how could I, as an outsider, guess what's on the princess' mind?"

"No..." Zhao Xin shook her head repeatedly like a rattle, "Xun Yi wouldn't be so stupid..."

"Princess, look for yourself!"

Pan Yuyin made up her mind and suddenly rolled up her sleeves, revealing a purple-red bloodstain on her fair and delicate arm.

"This is……"

"This is the result of Brother Liu's 'torture' of me after he heard that your life was in danger." Pan Yuyin smiled bitterly, "I have known Brother Liu for such a long time, and I have never seen him lose his mind so much, let alone see him going crazy and 'torturing' a weak woman recklessly. This shows how important the princess is in his heart... "

After hearing Pan Yuyin's explanation, Zhao Xin stared blankly at the bruises on her arm, not saying a word for a long time.

Suddenly, Zhao Xin, unable to control her emotions, whimpered and cried with her face covered as if the Yellow River had burst its banks. Finally, she threw away her modesty and laid on Pan Yuyin's shoulder, crying without restraint.

Pan Yuyin was kindhearted by nature, so how could she tolerate such a true expression of her feelings? She couldn't help herself and burst into tears with Zhao Xin.

A hearty cry released Zhao Xin's suppressed and heavy mood, and the stuffiness in her chest gradually eased a lot.

"Princess, since you and Brother Liu are inseparable, why don't you..."

"Miss Pan!" Zhao Xin interrupted Pan Yuyin's "instigation" in time and choked up, "Whether you are willing or not, this marriage involves too many things, too many things, so many that no one in the world has the right to make their own decisions, let alone control the overall situation. From the moment the Song and Mongolia reached a marriage, there was no longer any way out. Either I endure the shame and humiliation alone, or the Song Dynasty is destroyed and the Han people face the danger of extinction. If it were you... what would you choose? I admit that I am reluctant to leave today and afraid of tomorrow, but so what? This kind of thing can be avoided on the first day, but not on the fifteenth. What I should do... will be done sooner or later. Even if I become depressed or even die of depression, my body will be transported to Helin and buried in the Mongolian imperial mausoleum. Now that things have come to this, I can no longer turn back, and I will never turn back. Therefore, I am very touched by Miss Pan's kindness, but... I hope you will not waver in my determination."

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(End of this chapter)