Chapter 731: A Friendship in Times of Adversity (Part )

Faced with Liu Xunyi's infatuation, Zhao Xin's expression suddenly froze, and then she pursed her red lips tightly, and crystal tears rolled down silently. Then, she completely tore off her disguise in front of Liu Xunyi, who was at a loss, and cried like a helpless little girl, covering her face and crying bitterly.

Seeing this scene, Liu Xunyi was surprised and distressed. He didn't understand why Zhao Xin reacted so strongly to his true feelings.

"Xin'er, you...what's wrong with you?"

Liu Xunyi's voice was extremely gentle. He reached out to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes and gently touched her lips. A complex taste filled with bitterness and sorrow instantly covered all the pain in Liu Xunyi's body, causing her heart to tremble. An inexplicable sadness could not be suppressed and flowed into her blood, flowing throughout her body.

At this moment, Liu Xunyi felt a lump in his throat and tears suddenly appeared in his eyes for no reason.

"Xin'er, is it because of what I just said..."

"Xun Yi, are you going to treat me harshly? Are you going to humiliate me? Are you going to torture me? Are you going to kill me?"

Before Liu Xunyi could speak, Zhao Xin suddenly raised her head and asked Liu Xunyi four questions in a row while crying.

"This……"

The four questions were like four sharp swords that pierced deeply into Liu Xunyi's heart, making her feel like she was being cut by a knife, and she was in a trance, with tears streaming down her face uncontrollably.

"There is only one chance. Once you miss it... there is no going back." Zhao Xin suddenly broke free from Liu Xunyi's hands and took two steps back. She looked at Liu Xunyi, who was hesitant to speak, with tears in her eyes and choked up, "Since we are not destined to be together, why are you so stubborn? Since you are so heartbroken, why do you bring up the past and make us both miserable?"

"No... it's not like that..." Liu Xunyi shook his head unwillingly, "I thought I could let it go, but in fact I can't let it go at all. I'm not a saint, and I don't want to understand any great principles. I just want..."

"Stop talking!" Zhao Xin forced a trace of a sad smile on her tearful face. "Xun Yi, I've finally forced myself not to fantasize about being with you, not to hope to be with you day and night, so I beg you... please don't shake my determination anymore, okay? You know, every look you give me, every word you say to me, will defeat my perseverance, my determination, and my unswerving determination... I want to see you all the time, but I'm afraid to see you, even for a moment... Because I'm afraid that after seeing you, I will throw away the faith that I have finally established, and will be with you at all costs..."

"If Zhao Xin is like this, why not Liu Xunyi?" Liu Xunyi stared with a pair of red eyes, trying desperately to hold back his tears, even if it was in vain, "Since you and I are in tune with each other, why hesitate any longer? Xin'er, I have made up my mind, I am determined, and I will not waver again! I want to take you away, the farther the better..."

"Xunyi, stop talking..." Zhao Xin closed her eyes, as if she didn't dare to look at Liu Xunyi again, "I'm really afraid that I won't be able to resist and elope with you, and make a huge mistake..."

"Xin'er, is it because of what Qin Wei said to you that you still have a grudge against me?" Liu Xunyi asked anxiously, "If so, I can explain everything to you..."

"You don't need to explain anything. I believe you." Zhao Xin shook her head slowly. "I know that everything Qin Wei told me was false. Even if you married Miss Pan from Yingchuan, or even if you still had an affair with Miss Luo from Luoyang, there must be a reason for it. I don't believe a word of Qin Wei's disloyalty. Xunyi, I know what kind of person you are, and I know that you are not the kind of man who gets bored easily. So you don't need to explain anything. I believe that your attitude towards me has never changed."

"If that's the case, why did you agree to the marriage? You promised me that you would wait for me to come back, why did you change your mind at the last minute? I heard from the Marquis that you voluntarily agreed to the marriage with Mongolia and no one forced you. Is that true?"

Faced with Liu Xunyi's aggressive questioning, Zhao Xin felt as if her heart was broken by a knife and tears welled up like a spring, but she did not hide the truth after all. She cried silently and nodded slowly: "Yes!"

"hiss!"

Zhao Xin's simple words were like a heavy blow to the anxious Liu Xunyi. He was stunned and couldn't recover for a long time.

"Looking for clothes..."

"Did you really do it voluntarily?" Liu Xunyi muttered to himself in disbelief. Although he had expected this, he still felt ashamed and angry when he heard Zhao Xin admit it herself. He felt a mixture of mixed emotions and indescribable resentment. "You didn't agree to the marriage because you were angry with me, but... you were willing to marry to Mongolia. It was also because of this that you wrote that heartless letter..."

"What loveless letter?" Zhao Xin was stunned and asked in astonishment, "When have I ever written a loveless letter?"

"The princes and nobles followed the crowd, and Lu Zhu shed tears on her silk scarf. Once you enter the mansion of a marquis, it is as deep as the sea. From then on, Xiao Lang is just a passerby." Liu Xunyi seemed to be crying and laughing, with an extremely sad expression, "When the young prince handed me the heartless letter, I could only recognize your handwriting, but not your intentions. I even suspected that Qin Wei and the young prince had colluded secretly and forged this letter with trickery... But now, I understand! You don't care about the "innocence" in my letter at all, because you have already made up your mind, so you can write so smoothly..."

"What do you mean by 'innocent' in the letter? What do you mean by the eloquent writing?" Zhao Xindai frowned, looking confused. "What does this have to do with the young prince and Qin Wei..."

At this point, Zhao Xin's eyes changed quietly, and she suddenly realized: "I remember! The young prince came to the palace to find me and asked me to help him copy a new poem, which is the one you just recited. What? Did he give you the poem I copied as a heartless letter?" "I see..." Liu Xunyi knew that Zhao Xin would not lie, so he thought about it for a while and quickly figured it out. "It seems that my guess is right. Qin Wei and the young prince did not give you my letter at all. Instead, they tricked you into writing a heartless poem and lied that it was your reply to me."

"What do you mean? You wrote me a letter?"

"Forget it!" Liu Xunyi knew that it was useless to say more, so he waved his hand sadly, "Since you are willing to marry, the result will be the same whether this happens or not. My letter was just to prove my innocence. Now it seems that I have done something unnecessary."

Looking at the disheartened Liu Xunyi and listening to his words full of loss, Zhao Xin couldn't help but feel a pain in her heart. She slowly took two steps forward, squatted down and sat beside Liu Xunyi, sobbing softly: "Xunyi, although I agreed to the marriage, my feelings for you... have never changed."

"Why?" Liu Xunyi was angry and annoyed, but he didn't dare to vent to Zhao Xin. He could only punch the ground hard, smashing several stones on the ground into pieces. "You obviously have feelings for me, why did you agree to the marriage?"

"Why should I agree? Actually, you know the answer better than me, don't you?"

"I……"

"I remember that not long before you left Lin'an, I asked you at Wangjiang Pavilion if you were willing to take me far away? Find a place where no one knows us and start over." Zhao Xin recalled, "How did you answer me at that time? To this day, I still remember every word you said at that time. You said that this matter involved a lot of people. If we just left, what would happen to the little prince who secretly arranged our private meeting? As the young guard of Tianji Pavilion, you took away the princess of Dasong without authorization. What should Zhao Yuan do as the Marquis of Tianji? You can not care about anything, but you can't repay kindness with hatred for your own selfishness. If we just leave, how will those who have done us a favor deal with themselves? When you said this at that time, how heroic and righteous were you? How righteous were you? Why do you not care about anything today? Did I misunderstand what you meant, or were you just talking casually back then?"

"I..." Liu Xunyi was speechless when Zhao Xin refuted him with her own words.

"If you take me away now, how will the bloodbath in Yunya Town end? How will the conflict between Song and Mongolia be resolved?" Zhao Xin asked in rapid succession, "And Su He, he is a Mongolian, but he dares to guarantee your life. Do you really have the heart to put him in such an unjust position?"

"I..." Liu Xunyi looked conflicted and torn.

"It is because of your impassioned speech in the past that I am 'voluntarily' marrying off today." Zhao Xin's voice was intermittent and hesitant, as if she was very uneasy inside. "You are right, we should not repay kindness with enmity because of our own selfishness. The emperor, Prince Rong, and the little prince have all been kind to me. My father was even more loyal and did not hesitate to sacrifice his life for the country. If I don't agree to the marriage and refuse to help the Song Dynasty overcome this disaster, how can I be worthy of Prince Rong's upbringing? How can I be worthy of my dead parents? Am I going to destroy the reputation that my father exchanged his life for because of my own selfish desires? Xunyi, people should not be so selfish, this is what you taught me!"

"Xin'er..."

Zhao Xin ignored Liu Xunyi's hesitation and murmured, "Back then, I really wanted to run away with you, but you missed our only chance to be together... Maybe you can change your beliefs at will, and do whatever you want, but I don't have your ability, and I can't be as free and easy as you..."

Zhao Xin's heartfelt words revealed her own heart knot, and also revealed the scars in Liu Xunyi's heart.

"Xin'er, I understand your feelings." Liu Xunyi nodded slowly with a guilty conscience, "It was my wishful thinking that led me to do such a ridiculous, rebellious and stupid thing. I ignored your feelings and fancifully thought that you would make the same choice as me."

"Looking for clothes..."

"It's okay." Liu Xunyi interrupted Zhao Xin's consolation and forced a smile, "You are right, and I am the one who is wrong. I was too late to realize it and missed the opportunity to depend on you for life and death. If you don't want to go with me, at least you don't have to follow me to wander around and survive a near-death experience. It may not be a bad thing..."

Seeing Liu Xunyi's deep sorrow, Zhao Xin could no longer suppress her worries. She suddenly opened her arms and hugged him tightly, saying word by word: "Xunyi, I have known you for many years. I have seen you frustrated, depressed, and sad... But I have never seen you like this today, so reckless, impulsive, decadent, depressed, and even... embarrassed!"

"Yeah!" Liu Xunyi didn't move, letting Zhao Xin hold him. He looked at his reflection in the water and said self-deprecatingly, "I really look embarrassed..."

"Tell me, what happened?" Zhao Xin pleaded in a stubborn tone, "The Liu Xunyi I knew before was a man of integrity, loyal and wise, with a heart for the world and lofty ambitions. But today you are impulsive and reckless, and you are suspicious. I... am really worried about you! Tell me, what caused your temperament to change so drastically? What made you so pessimistic and negative about the world?"

……

　Laba Festival, it feels like Chinese New Year is coming soon.

　　Luo Tianjin originally wanted to promote the good fortune and misfortune of Liu Xunyi and Luo Ningyu on the eighth day of the twelfth lunar month, but he did not expect that good fortune and misfortune would come first...

　　
　
(End of this chapter)