Chapter 1090 Mother and Son Talk (Part )

"Worried to the point of exhaustion? Tormented?" Xiao Zhirou looked at Liu Xunyi in disbelief, and asked in astonishment, "Why? Do you think your life experience... is a burden?"

"If I accept my life story, I must accept the fact that I 'murdered my own father.'" Liu Xunyi's eyes were fierce and his words were filled with grief and anger. "Every time I think of this, I remember that I didn't even have the chance to confess to... to Alliance Leader Luo in person. I feel so upset and remorseful. It's like a thorn in my back, itching at my heart, making me feel at a loss as to what to do, let alone how to face myself."

"You don't have to care about Luo Tianjin, let alone your past with him. It's enough for you to know that I'm your mother and that Patriarch Teng is your grandfather!" Xiao Zhirou urged, "If you don't want to recall those unpleasant things and don't want to let yourself sink into the eyes of the world... let's leave here immediately and go to a place where no one knows your past and no one cares about your origin. Mother promises that you will never see anyone related to Luo Tianjin again, and never deal with people from the Xianwang Mansion again..."

"No one knows my past? No one cares about my origin? Then what about you? What about me? What about Yu'er?" Liu Xunyi laughed in extreme sorrow, like a madman, "If we were to ask who in the world has the deepest connection with Alliance Leader Luo? The closest relationship? The three of us must be at the top of the list. I am Luo Tianjin's son, and my body is filled with Luo Tianjin's blood, which can never, ever be changed, let alone separated. You want me to escape? Where can I escape to? You want me to hide, maybe I can hide from everyone including you and Yu'er, but let me ask... how can I hide from myself? Unless I die, I will never be able to get rid of the nightmare of 'parricide' in my entire life..."

"From the beginning to the end, 'fratricide' is a complete scam. You, me, Yu'er, and Luo Tianjin... are all pawns in this scam. You are being used and manipulated, and you have no power to break free." Xiao Zhirou held Liu Xunyi's blue and purple cheeks tightly with her hands, and corrected his ideas righteously, "In the final analysis, everything is an old account between me, Luo Tianjin, and Yun Zhuiyue. Because of our mutual revenge, you and your brother have suffered. In this matter, Yun Zhuiyue is the culprit, Luo Tianjin is also guilty, and even mother... is not innocent. Therefore, let alone you just participated in the assassination, even if you killed him and mother with your own hands, you are innocent. As for the three of us... no matter how miserable our end is, it is all our own fault. It is not worth your sadness, let alone your guilt! If you want to blame, blame us, hate us if you want to hate, don't make it difficult for yourself, and don't be too harsh on yourself."

"There is no right or wrong in relationships. You are just doing what you want to do from your own standpoint. How can I... blame you?"

"Stand on your own standpoint and do what you want to do... Well said! Really well said!" Looking at Liu Xunyi with red eyes, Xiao Zhirou suppressed her inner entanglement and asked word by word, "You sympathize with Luo Tianjin's fate, pity Yun Zhuiyue's experience, care about your sister's life and death, and stick to your own principles, but have you... ever thought about your mother's feelings?"

"This..." Faced with Xiao Zhirou's questioning, Liu Xunyi couldn't help but feel speechless.

"If you refuse to recognize me because you hate me, I have nothing to say. But if you distance yourself from me because you feel guilty about Luo Tianjin, and abandon me because you care about him, I would rather die than accept that. Isn't it too unfair to me to do this? After all, you not only have Luo Tianjin's blood flowing in your body, but also my blood."

"I……"

"What do you mean by me?" Seeing that Liu Xunyi was upset and seemed unable to speak, Xiao Zhirou said seriously, "Mother can see that you don't hate me. When mother cared about you... you also showed your joy unintentionally. In this case, why are you still hesitating? There are no outsiders here, so we mother and son should just say everything that is suppressed in our hearts, okay?"

"This……"

"Be a real man, don't be hesitant!" Xiao Zhirou sternly taught him, "Even your sister knows that you have to be open and honest to resolve misunderstandings. How can you, as a brother, be so coy and ambiguous?"

"In fact, apart from 'patricide', I... do have other concerns. It's not that I don't want to recognize my own mother, but... I don't dare."

"Why not?" Seeing Liu Xunyi finally let down his guard and open up to her, Xiao Zhirou's eyes lit up and she couldn't help but tremble slightly. She suppressed her excitement and joy and asked again and again, "I will sit here alive. As long as you are willing, anyone... No! Not only anyone, even the gods and Buddhas outside the nine heavens, can't prevent us from recognizing each other!"

"I'm not afraid of recognizing you, but I'm afraid that after recognizing you... I will become dependent on you." Perhaps he was exhausted or mentally tired. Panting, Liu Xunyi gently leaned his scarred body against the head of the bed and said weakly, "From childhood to adulthood, I have experienced countless abandonment and betrayal. Therefore, I would rather others rely on me than rely on others..."

"This……"

"You may think I'm stubborn, suspicious, or even heartless... That's because you have never experienced the bitterness and helplessness of 'if you lean on the mountain, the mountain will fall, if you lean on the tree, the tree will shake'." Recalling the past, Liu Xunyi's eyes became increasingly dim, and his tone became increasingly bitter. "For more than 20 years, anyone I treated sincerely... no matter how deep my feelings were, they would deteriorate due to various reasons. Anyone who treated me sincerely... nine out of ten did not have a good ending. The 'parents' who raised me passed away early, and the brothers who shared the joys and sorrows with me... Because of "interests", we turned against each other, and the woman who swore to me forever could resolutely leave me. Even the former Marquis, who I once regarded as the "greatest benefactor" of my reborn parents... once tried to kill me at all costs when life and death were at stake... Not to mention the people in the martial arts world. Some people fall down once is bad luck, fall down twice is coincidence, but if you fall down again and again... wouldn't you be a fool who doesn't remember? Although I, Liu Xunyi, am not smart, I don't want to be a fool who allows others to fool me. Therefore, now I..."

Having said this, Liu Xunyi subconsciously glanced at Xiao Zhirou who was listening attentively, and a hint of pity emerged in the depths of his eyes.

However, at this moment, Xiao Zhirou was so focused on recognizing Liu Xunyi that she had no time to observe his subtle expressions. Seeing that he was hesitant to speak, she was inevitably anxious, so she frowned slightly and asked without thinking: "How are you now?" "Alas!"

Seeing Xiao Zhirou "relentless", Liu Xunyi sighed softly, and then his expression became serious, and he said in a serious tone: "Now, I don't trust anyone except myself!"

"hiss!"

Liu Xunyi's blunt words made Xiao Zhirou's heart sink, and she took a breath of cold air.

Of course she understood that Liu Xunyi's thoughts were so paranoid because "once bitten by a snake, one will be afraid of ropes for ten years."

There is a saying that "there is no greater sorrow than a dead heart". It seems that Liu Xunyi has lost his heart to all people, things and things related to love. He resists, dislikes and even... hates it to the extreme.

But in fact, Xiao Zhirou only guessed half right.

In fact, Liu Xunyi is not a heartless and ungrateful person, otherwise he would not have let Ling Xiaoxiao and the Wudang disciples go because of Luo Ningyu's friendship.

However, he experienced hope, disappointment, hope again, and disappointment again time and again... making his sincere and passionate heart full of holes and bleeding from lies and deceptions.

Now, he has realized the cruelty of reality and seen through the wickedness of human hearts, so he has buried his simple and fragile "feelings" deep in his heart and no longer shows them to others as easily as before. Naturally, this gives people the illusion that he is "cold-blooded" and "heartless".

In the final analysis, Liu Xunyi's "indifference" was not directed at Xiao Zhirou, it was just that she was unlucky.

It is worth mentioning that whether the change in Liu Xunyi's temperament is related to the extremely yin and poisonous "evil power" he practiced? No one dares to make a conclusion at the moment. But if it is said that there is no effect at all... I am afraid it is not credible.

"Mother understands! I understand everything!" Seeing Liu Xunyi's emotional state, Xiao Zhirou was worried about his injury, so she softened her tone and tried to comfort him, "Today, you can tell me what's in your heart and let me know that you don't hate me. I am already satisfied. I won't be anxious or force you. I will use time to prove my sincerity to you. I believe that one day you will change your mind."

At this point, Xiao Zhirou stretched out her soft hands and gently grasped Liu Xunyi's right hand, which was tightly bandaged but trembling violently due to the inner agitation. She spoke gently but firmly, "Xunyi, the fact that our blood is thicker than water will never change. Whether you recognize me or not... you are my flesh and blood. I have missed too many, too many beautiful things, especially missing out on your growth, which is the biggest regret of my life. The first half of my life has been like this, and I regret it too much. Therefore, I will not ask for anything, fight for anything, or do anything in the second half of my life. I just want to stay quietly by your and Ping'er's side, accompany you in your joys and sorrows, and watch you get married and start a family."

"I...you..."

"No need to say more! You just need to remember one thing, I am different from those people you mentioned." Xiao Zhirou smiled at the restless and incoherent Liu Xunyi, and said solemnly, "I am not your brother, not your 'woman', not your superior, and not your benefactor. I... am your biological mother! Everyone in the world may abandon you, betray you, and leave you, but I will never do so. From now on, no matter what trouble you and your sister encounter, I will stand in front of you regardless of my own safety and protect you from the wind and rain. You just said that you once 'leaned on the mountain and the mountain shook' and 'leaned on the tree and the tree fell', and I felt regretful and distressed after hearing that. You don't believe anyone... In fact, I am almost the same as you. Except for your grandfather, your brother and sister, and Ah Fu and Wu Hui, the children who were raised by me, I also don't believe anyone, and... I don't care about anyone. For you, I have no hesitation and no fear. Even if I give everything for you, even my own life, I am willing and willing to do it!"

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(End of this chapter)