Chapter 1089 Mother and Son Talk (I)

A red sun gradually rose in the east, and a hint of paleness appeared at the end of the sky.

Danfeng Garden, inner courtyard.

A faint and soft ray of sunlight shone into the room through the doors and windows, gradually revealing the true appearance of the dim and hazy room, and also dimming the shaky and dying candlelight on the table.

There were wisps of tiny dust floating in the air that could only be seen but not touched, and a strong but not pungent herbal fragrance filled the air, completely covering up the bloody smell emanating from Liu Xunyi's body.

At this time, Liu Xunyi, who was wrapped heavily in medicine cloth, lay quietly on the bed like a rice dumpling tied up by layers of lotus leaves.

His eyes were slightly closed, his breathing was even, his body occasionally trembled, and light snoring came from his mouth and nose.

Perhaps he was too tired to waste his energy on random thoughts. Perhaps the medicine he took orally or applied externally had the effect of calming his mind and soul. This night could be said to be the most peaceful and deepest sleep Liu Xunyi had had in the past year. Although he was covered in scars and had many pains, he felt at ease and relaxed.

For the whole night, he didn't feel nervous, cautious, or disturbed by nightmares, and didn't wake up suddenly... He slept peacefully, calmly, and comfortably until dawn. This kind of thing might be commonplace for ordinary people, but it was extremely rare for Liu Xunyi, who had been displaced since childhood, experienced many hardships, and lived in the shadows of swords and swords all day long.

Beside the bed, a graceful figure sat quietly, staring intently at the sleeping Liu Xunyi, smiling from time to time, frowning from time to time, showing joy from time to time, and sad from time to time...

Just like this from late night to dawn, one lay in bed drowsy, wandering in the world, while the other sat by the bed with mixed feelings, melancholy in the distance.

Such a warm and peaceful scene, such a peaceful and leisurely solitude, such a close and tender love... This scene can be seen everywhere in ordinary families, but it is an unprecedented experience for this poor mother and son. Even when Liu Xunyi was just born, there had never been such a harmonious and harmonious mother-son time.

Xiao Zhirou originally thought that just one night would not allow her to recall the complicated and tortuous unforgettable experience. However, when she sat beside Liu Xunyi and calmly reviewed the past... she suddenly found that there was very little about Liu Xunyi in her memory.

Apart from the few times that Liu Xunyi had dealt with her as a disciple of the Prince Xian's Mansion, the memories of the "mother-son relationship"... seemed to be only "a wrinkled little face", "a few whimpering cries", and the pictures of "little hands", "little feet", "little arms and legs" that remained deep in her mind...that was all.

When Xiao Zhirou discovered that even the memories of her own flesh and blood had become a fleeting luxury, an indescribable shame and regret quickly surged into her heart. For a moment, she felt as if her heart was burning, her liver was torn, and her heart was torn as if by a knife. The pain was unbearable.

"Cough cough..."

Suddenly, Liu Xunyi frowned in his sleep and coughed softly, which immediately pulled Xiao Zhirou back to reality from her trance. She was so shocked that her eyes changed and she quickly put her hands on Liu Xunyi's chest, patting it gently through the quilt, and humming softly, just like... a mother coaxing her child to sleep, as gentle, delicate and patient as a mother.

When Liu Xunyi stopped coughing and his brows relaxed, Xiao Zhirou's heart finally settled down. She saw a layer of fine beads of sweat on his forehead, so she quickly took out a handkerchief from her bosom and wiped it carefully for him.

However, at the moment when the brocade handkerchief touched Liu Xunyi, the half-conscious Liu Xunyi suddenly "grunted", his eyelids trembled slightly, and then he slowly opened his eyes under Xiao Zhirou's slightly panicked gaze.

"This……"

Seeing Liu Xunyi wake up, Xiao Zhirou was pleasantly surprised. Then, a hint of worry and apology emerged in her eyes.

Liu Xunyi, who had just woken up from a dream, was still a little dizzy and confused. He stared at the roof with empty and confused eyes. No matter how concerned Xiao Zhirou was, he turned a deaf ear to her. He seemed to be trying hard to recall his own experiences and current situation, and he couldn't come back to his senses for a long time.

"This is Danfeng Garden. After the 'Eradication of Traitors' Conference' ended yesterday, we sent you here under Xie Xuan's arrangement." Xiao Zhirou seemed to see Liu Xunyi's confusion, so she whispered to him and recalled what happened yesterday. "But because you were weak and fell asleep before getting off the carriage, we had to carry you in to rest. You have been sleeping since yesterday evening until now..."

As if awakened by Xiao Zhirou's voice, Liu Xunyi's eyes moved slightly and he subconsciously looked in the direction of the voice.

"How do you feel? Are you feeling uncomfortable?" Xiao Zhirou asked in rapid succession, "It's getting light now, why don't you sleep a little longer?"

"Xiao... ahem! Valley Master Xiao?"

When Liu Xunyi gradually realized that the person in front of him was Xiao Zhirou, his sleepy eyes were startled at first. Then, the hazy sleepiness that was still lingering in his heart quickly faded, and a gleam of surprise suddenly flashed in his eyes. No longer caring about his chaotic mind and heavy body, Liu Xunyi called out in a hoarse voice, and at the same time hurriedly got up, trying to roll out of bed and bow to Xiao Zhirou.

"Xunyi, what are you doing?" Xiao Zhirou was caught off guard and was horrified. She pushed the flustered Liu Xunyi back to the bed without saying anything. "Last night, when Miss Pan was treating your injuries, she told you not to move around, so as to avoid the wound bursting..." "But..."

"Come! Drink some water first."

Ignoring Liu Xunyi's refusal, Xiao Zhirou handed him the clean water that she had prepared earlier. Before Liu Xunyi could reach out to take it, Xiao Zhirou had already gently pushed his arm away with her left hand, and held the teacup to his lips with her right hand, urging him in an unquestionable tone: "Your hand is injured, don't move, just open your mouth."

"This……"

Before he could finish his words, a hint of coolness seeped into his lips. Liu Xunyi had no time to refuse, so he swallowed the glass of water in a daze.

The sweet and clear water flowed down Liu Xunyi's throat and immediately refreshed him. The only remaining trace of sleepiness disappeared without a trace.

"How can I be so worthy as to trouble Master Xiao..."

"I am your mother and you are my son. It is natural for a mother to take care of her child. Why be so formal?" Xiao Zhirou moved the teacup away from Liu Xunyi's lips and wiped the water stains from the corners of his mouth with her sleeve.

Xiao Zhirou did such a "not shy" action naturally and casually. On the other hand, Liu Xunyi sat on the bed at a loss. Facing Xiao Zhirou's considerate care, he felt guilty and could not avoid it. He was in a dilemma and felt very embarrassed.

"Could it be... Master Xiao is here to wait for the whole night?"

When Liu Xunyi saw Xiao Zhirou looking exhausted and still wearing the ragged dress she had torn off to save him yesterday, he was stunned. While he was in disbelief, a warm feeling arose in his heart.

"How can I feel at ease when you are so injured? Not to mention waiting for you for one night, what's the harm even if I wait for you for ten, a hundred, or a thousand nights?" Xiao Zhirou replied nonchalantly, "What's more, I can't trust anyone else. I have to wait for you in person to feel at ease."

"Valley Master Xiao..."

"Alas! How long are you going to keep calling me 'Valley Master Xiao'?"

Seeing Liu Xunyi calling "Valley Master Xiao" all the time, Xiao Zhirou couldn't hide her disappointment. As she turned around and put down her teacup, she couldn't help but complain.

Hearing this, the uneasy Liu Xunyi's heart tightened and his voice stopped abruptly.

He sat sideways on the bed, staring blankly at Xiao Zhirou who looked lonely, feeling mixed emotions inside and not knowing how to respond for a moment.

"yesterday……"

The strange silence lasted for an unknown amount of time. The flustered Xiao Zhirou finally mustered up her courage and decided not to dodge anymore. She suddenly raised her head, her beautiful eyes fixed on Liu Xunyi who was hesitant to speak, and asked intermittently: "Yesterday, you insisted on not recognizing me... because Qingfeng was aggressive and aggressive, and you didn't want to implicate me... Now that Qingfeng is dead, you and I have no worries, could it be that... you still don't want to recognize your mother?"

"I……"

"I know! I know!" As if she was worried about hearing some "heartless words" from Liu Xunyi that would make her want to die, Xiao Zhirou rushed to pave the way for herself before Liu Xunyi could speak, "Mother is sorry for you, sorry for Ping'er. From your childhood to adulthood, I have never fulfilled my duties as a mother for a single day... If you are angry with me, blame me, or even hate me because of this... Mother knows and understands. Mother does not want to embarrass you, let alone force you to recognize me. Mother just... I can't help feeling sad when I see you, and I can't help asking you... When will you forgive me? In fact, mother never dared to ask you and I to be as close as other mothers and sons. Mother only asks... Don't reject me thousands of miles away, just give me a chance to make amends, let me stay by your side to care for you, take care of you, and protect you. If that's the case, even if you refuse to recognize me or call me 'mother' for the rest of your life... I will have no regrets."

Looking at Xiao Zhirou, who was in deep love and in tears, and listening to her heartfelt desire, how could Liu Xunyi, who had just experienced a life-and-death catastrophe, not be sad? How could he not be moved? How could he not be worried?

Unconsciously, he couldn't help but have red eyes due to his confusion. In his sight, Xiao Zhirou's beautiful face with tears in her eyes gradually became blurred.

"Everything is determined by fate. In fact, I have already said that I don't blame you, let alone hate you. All the ups and downs I have experienced are setbacks destined by my fate, and have nothing to do with anyone else..." Liu Xunyi took a deep breath and tried to keep himself calm, but even so, his voice couldn't help but tremble slightly. "When I was a child, Yu'er and I didn't know that we were adopted by others. We just thought of our 'adoptive parents' as our 'real parents'. Xinglin Village was suddenly hit by a plague, and my parents, like other people in the village, were not spared. We became 'orphans' overnight, and we only blamed God for being ruthless, but never blamed the injustice of the world. The days in Tianji Pavilion... Although it was hard, there were people around us. I am a person with the same tragic fate as myself, but I don’t feel sorry for myself after a long time. From childhood to adulthood, I have always cared for myself, taken care of myself, and protected myself... I have long been accustomed to loneliness. I thought that I had no other relatives in the world except Yuer, but unexpectedly... To be honest, when I learned about my true life experience... I was neither relieved nor happy, but instead felt depressed and sad that my life was disrupted. Until today... I still don’t know how to accept it? I’m not afraid of you laughing at me when I say this, but sometimes, I would rather not know anything about it. This way I can be free and unencumbered... I don’t have to worry and suffer all day like I do now. "

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　Yellow sand filled the air, and the sky and earth were all yellow. The red light of the purifier was on for a whole day, but people could vaguely smell a faint earthy smell in the room.
　　
　
(End of this chapter)