Chapter 432: The outside and the inside are different

If you bloom, butterflies will come to you. Mu Zhengguang doesn't like this sentence very much. In his opinion, this is another wishful fantasy.

There are no butterflies in the destiny of some people. No matter how brightly the flower of their life blooms, how strong the fragrance is, and how many bees and hummingbirds it attracts, it will not attract a butterfly.

Some people think that when flowers bloom, butterflies will come, and some people think that when bees and hummingbirds come, butterflies will also come. These ideas are unfounded. If you think about it occasionally and then laugh it off, it won’t have much impact. But if you take this sentence as the pillar of your confidence, it’s a bit scary.

Most people understand that ducks cannot turn into swans.

Even if the flowers bloom, the butterflies may not necessarily come. Not many people understand this truth.

There are many similar examples, such as "I'm not worthy of you". Two people who are not in love yet, or two people who are in love, or two people who are married, may suddenly think of these four words.

What is the question of whether one is worthy or not? As long as the result is achieved, does it matter whether one is worthy or not? If the result is not achieved, does it still make sense to be worthy or not?
"I'm not good enough for you" is an excuse for myself. When I think back to why the two of you didn't get together, the words "I'm not good enough for you" will come out of my mouth. What kind of words are these? These are irresponsible words. This is not the reason why the two of you didn't get together.

Some people are convinced from the bottom of their hearts that they are not worthy of the other person. They are ready to work hard until the love blooms, and then go back to pursue the other person. Some people can still catch up, while others will miss it forever.

And those who have missed out, will look back and say these four words, "I'm not worthy of you." They take this sentence as a reason for missing out, but this statement is obviously far from the truth.

From a subjective point of view, when two people meet and then miss each other, it is because they made the wrong choice, or it is indeed because their personal conditions do not meet, or it is because of other reasons. But from an objective point of view, there is only one reason: it is destined to be so.

If butterflies are destined to come, they will come when the time comes, they don’t have to wait until the flowers bloom.

It is destined that there are no butterflies. No matter what kind of flowers bloom, they will not attract butterflies.

Cui Yunqing didn't plan to continue testing him. Instead of testing him with small ideas one by one and trying to open a gap, it would be better to classify and summarize famous sayings from ancient times to the present, both at home and abroad, and throw them all to him, so as to win by quantity.

Yang Shuyu deliberately challenged the lower concentration of evil. Every time Cui Yunqing threw out a sentence or an opinion, she would think, analyze, judge, and fight back with great effort. She found that without the help of external forces, her fighting speed was far slower than Mu Zhengguang.

Cui Yunqing didn't know that Yang Shuyu was also fighting against evil. She only knew that Mu Zhengguang seemed to be able to defeat almost all low-concentration evils that were carried out through language. If he wanted to turn defeat into victory without increasing the concentration, he had to change the form.

The story begins on campus.

In the places where Mu Zhengguang had lived but never paid attention to, disputes never stopped.

Usually, the concentration of crime on campus is not too high. It is a little difficult to find a lower concentration of crime in such a place, but there is a way to solve this problem well, which is to combine behavior, words and thoughts.

When Mu Zhengguang was in the first grade of junior high school, his class monitor was named Luo Xingyuan. He never understood why Luo Xingyuan became the class monitor. In the second half of the semester, the question changed to another form: Why was Luo Xingyuan the class monitor instead of Xu, both girls?

Compared with Luo Xingyuan, Xu has at least two advantages.

1. Although Xu does not have the same method of slamming the table as Luo Xingyuan, she can learn it. She is taller than Luo Xingyuan, and it is more intimidating when she slams the table.

Second, Xu's score is the unshakable first among the girls, in the top three of the class, and in the top five of the school. In contrast, Luo Xingyuan's ranking is at most in the top 1/3.

Mu Zhengguang watched some images and listened to some voices, and reluctantly came to the conclusion: Luo Xingyuan was able to become the class monitor not because of some behind-the-scenes manipulation, but because the class teacher "appointed people based on their merits."

One day, after school in the afternoon and before evening self-study, there were few people in the classroom. Luo Xingyuan walked from the first row to the last row, from the right to the left. She walked around and around, calculating how much energy she consumed in each circle, and how many circles she had to walk to consume the energy of the bag of instant noodles in her hand.

Luo Xingyuan's voice was not small, and she was not the only one who could hear it. The other people sitting in the classroom did not make too much noise, and her voice was enough to be heard in every corner of the empty classroom.

"Our class monitor's family is very poor."

"Huh? How do you know? I think she has more clothes than me."

"Who can't afford a few pieces of clothing now? Her house is built on the roadside, and the wall is very low."

"Oh, so she still has money to buy clothes?"

"She can't have 'my family is poor' written all over her face, right? Of course she has to buy more clothes, and clothes aren't expensive."

Mu Zhengguang could no longer remember the specific names corresponding to the two voices, but the words spoken by one of them had little to do with the person who spoke. No matter who it was, it was inappropriate to say such words.

In the classroom that I thought was peaceful and calm, there was such a conversation? Luo Xingyuan was walking around in the classroom, and other students dared to discuss her family situation in private, and with malicious intent?
The one who was talking and the one who was being talked about must have had a long-standing grudge between them. Was it because Luo Xingyuan was too overbearing and often slammed the table, or because she often changed clothes and her clothes were always clean, even new? It shouldn't be because of these external reasons. Not sure. Perhaps it was those most superficial reasons that created unimaginable malice.

Luo Xingyuan was walking around the classroom not just to lose weight. It was more meaningful for her to show off her weight loss in front of her classmates. She calculated the numbers not just to set a goal for herself. It was too difficult to be knowledgeable in academics. It was much easier to be "knowledgeable" in a small matter outside of academics.

Mu Zhengguang saw what Luo Xingyuan was thinking.

There is nothing wrong with buying more clothes as long as your financial situation allows.

At this age and in this environment, it is common for a person to be a little vain, and she should not be criticized for it.

As for her family background, this is even less reason for her to be criticized. She has no obligation to tell her classmates about her family background, and conversely, her classmates have no right to know her family situation. Maybe Xiao Xu is more suitable and qualified to be the class monitor than she is, but what is there to envy about this position?

The teacher made her the monitor, not to give her power and honor, but to give her responsibility and work. But after people get this position, they usually add a lot of power to themselves and think that they are powerful people. I used to think so, and Xiao Xu, a freshman in junior high school, must have thought so too.

A difference in one thought leads to two completely different views. Jealousy and disgust, acceptance, wrong and right, two approaches are formed.

In the second year of junior high school, Mu Zhengguang's deskmate was Lu Qiuting.

Mu Zhengguang has had a very good impression of Lu Qiuting for many years. The tall and thin girl exudes a kind of beauty that is very different from that of classmate Xiao Xu.

Lu Qiuting's test scores were far lower than Xiao Xu's. She always had many questions that she couldn't answer. When I explained the questions to her, she would occasionally stare at me. She could occasionally understand the questions I explained to her. Later, she was admitted to Pinglin Senior High School, and then there was no news from her. Her name always remained in my friend list, but her movements and appearance remained in my memory.

The picture appears and the sound sounds.

"Zhang Zhuo's qualifications aren't particularly good, so we don't necessarily have to choose him."

"His family also has a house in Jujiang City, which is worth at least 100 million yuan."

"Is he reliable? If his family has a house in Jujiang City, why does he still stay in Qichuan City?"

"He should be reliable. I'll ask him when I find a chance."

Did Lu Qiuting pay much attention to other people's family conditions? Is it too early to start asking other boys how many houses they have at this age? It's not too late to ask ten years later.

We used to be very good friends, and our conversations were not limited to topics in books. She also asked me about my family conditions.

They were just a few casual words, "Where do you live?", "Do you have older brothers or sisters?", "You study so well, is it because your parents help you with your homework every day?"

Why? Why behind such casual words, what I understood was not the friendliness? I could sense her curiosity, but I didn't know that she said these words out of such curiosity.

I am not interested in other people's family conditions. When others ask me about this, my answer is very simple.

"I live behind the school, on the left side of the street" "No" "No".

The boy they were talking about, Zhang Zhuo, seemed to be in a relationship with one of the girls? We were more than just friends? We had been in the same classroom for a year, and how come I had no idea?
Zhang Zhuo was also ranked in the top ten in the school. He often called his friends. If all his friends gathered around him, they would walk together like a group. I was not in a group with him, but I had some friendship with him. I never heard him say that there was a girl in our class who was very close to him.

That girl's grades were average, about the same as Lu Qiuting's. Even if I had seen those two people walking together, I probably wouldn't have thought that there was anything more than friendship between them, right?

It turns out that so many strange things happened around me and in that classroom?
Mu Zhengguang suddenly felt a little depressed: What I thought were good times and important places were all based on my lack of understanding of them? I don't know what happened there. If I knew, would I still think that the place that carries my precious memories is important? Would I still think that those people are good?
It turns out that my ability to distinguish right from wrong, which I am proud of, still has many flaws.

He is heartbroken.

I'm not heartbroken for my own shortcomings, but for all the wrong things we did and all the wrong thoughts we had during that time.

Why did they develop bad habits so many years ago? But I mistakenly thought they were innocent. For a long time, in the memories that I thought were beautiful and precious, there were actually bad people hidden one after another!

Regret and pain are intertwined. Although they are light, they are very deep. They come from the past and from the depths of the heart, and they will completely negate all the beauty of the past and present related to them.

When he was in the third year of junior high school, Mu Zhengguang often saw Cheng Minghao posting photos of him and Huang Xinyue on his WeChat Moments.

Cheng Minghao is a boy and Huang Xinyue is a girl.

Today, when Mu Zhengguang saw the place where they took the photo, he finally understood the significance of the photo that day.

There were white quilts and pillows in the room, and the distance between the two people was not limited to hugging.

The academic performance of those two people was probably in the top 50 or maybe the top 30 in the school. The teachers would occasionally praise them, praising their ranking in a certain subject, or their attitude towards study, or their discipline, and so on.

In the eyes of other students, they also seem to follow the rules. They hand in their homework on time, are never late, never doze off in class, never go to other classes after class, and never play with others. When communicating with classmates, they are not very enthusiastic, and even a little shy and introverted. No matter who you are, it is hard to imagine that so many things have happened to them.

In fact, they are also very enthusiastic people, but they are only enthusiastic towards each other, and most people can't see it.

Why are they doing the wrong thing at the wrong time?
What kind of compelling reason is driving them to do this?
Mu Zhengguang did not find any element of compulsion: the girl was willing, and the boy always respected the girl. They had made appointments and got together many times, but this time was different. They were happy, satisfied, and proud of what they did, and they did not realize that it was wrong to do so!

Mu Zhengguang hated what they did, and hated people like them. Before entering society, they were already more complicated, and after entering society, they would make themselves and the whole world more complicated, but he did not expect to see them suffer the consequences in this life.

Because what they did was not harmful, if they can get married and get a marriage certificate, then when they think back on what happened that day, no matter how they feel, whether they think it is right or wrong, it can be considered as making up for it. I hope they will not regret it in their lives, nor will they face huge setbacks because of it.

Cui Yunqing seized the moment of Mu Zhengguang's inner turmoil. She no longer followed the routine of flipping through the old stories beside him, but instead fulfilled his wish and let him see the future of the two of them.

(End of this chapter)