Chapter 429: Love and Hate Reset to Zero
When copying, Mu Zhengguang read the note once, and when deleting, he read it again. The context of the past and Xu's intentions became clearer in his mind.

Mu Zhengguang locked the copied note in a cabinet and never read it, but he often thought about the words on the paper. He also copied the words of Xiao Xu before his death on the paper. Those words were very long and contained a lot of content, but the most important one was undoubtedly to teach people how to face the death of their loved ones.

If Xu was just my friend or my sister, I would definitely not be so sad if she died. More than a year has passed, and I have almost let it go.

However, we have known each other for nine years and wanted to spend our lives together. If she hadn't died, we would have gotten married in a few years. To me, she is irreplaceable and no one else can replace her.

However, if there is someone who is half as caring as she is, I am willing to return the same care. A classmate once said, "Some students in the class haven't talked to girls of the same age for half a year." I used to think of this as a joke, but now that I have become such a person, I find that this sentence is not funny at all.

The more detailed, specific and beautiful a person's fantasy is, the more likely he or she is to fall into deeper regrets, but Cui Yunqing has not yet seen the cage of regret.

Mu Zhengguang used two solid lines and two dotted lines to set the boundaries for his fantasy.

The two solid lines represent physical and mental pain. The existence of these two lines prevents him from sinking deeper and deeper into his fantasy, and makes it even more impossible for him to take action and try to turn his fantasy into reality.

The two dotted lines are conscience and reason. If you have someone you can't let go of, and you want to pursue someone you like, it's equivalent to betrayal and infidelity. Conscience says you can't do this, and reason says the same thing.

Within the boundaries, Mu Zhengguang's fantasy spans the past and the future: If time could go back... If Xu was still alive...

In this extremely prosperous fantasy, death is both the beginning and the end. No matter what kind of future appears in Mu Zhengguang's fantasy, the past called death can quickly drag him back to reality. Although he is in pain, he is very sober.

Xiao Xu has been gone for fourteen months. Based on what she did, thought, and how far she was from justice, her reincarnation, or her death, may not be a tragedy. Or, is it not a tragedy for her? It may not be a tragedy for me either. If I regard this as a tragedy, it means that I don’t trust her enough, I don’t trust her personality and character, and I don’t trust what she says and what she says.

Isn't this also betrayal?
I have betrayed her for too long, and I have betrayed justice for too long.

What humans can do is not to change what has happened or what is destined to happen, but to make the right choice when these things happen, or to take a step back and not make choices that seriously betray justice.

Mu Zhengguang's yearning for justice and his memories of the past are always in conflict. The person who once helped him towards justice has become the most difficult mountain for him to climb.

She stood there, her every move turned into thorns, all the beautiful past memories turned into sand and icy rain. Her smile was like fog, making it impossible to tell the direction and see the road.

However, the good old days can still bring benefits to people, and ice rain is also a source of water. People who climb this mountain will not die of thirst. Her voice and her words are like hanging stars, guiding people with their weak light.

Yang Shuyu also saw this "mountain". The birth of this mountain was not due to sin, but it was not due to justice either. It was the only way to pursue justice, not the end.

Yang Shuyu thought that it would take at least a year for her to climb the mountain. If Cui Yunqing were to climb the mountain, it would be a pipe dream. She would be scared when she saw the mountain, let alone climb it.

While climbing the mountain, Mu Zhengguang was also observing the malice and superior lives of others.

Many people say that fate is unfair, but in fact, fate is fair. Many people also say that birth is unfair, but in fact, birth is also fair. However, in real life, the unfair treatment people encounter is indeed unfair. In the confrontation between good and evil, this unfair treatment will be particularly obvious.

Some people met when they were young, and after more than ten years of ups and downs, they finally got married.

Some people hastily choose someone they neither like nor hate and enter into marriage in a hurry.

Their marriages are all destined, and more importantly, their marriages are not decided by themselves, but are suitable, not from a human perspective, but from a destiny perspective.

Understanding these principles does not mean that people can accept the facts. Mu Zhengguang combined the principles with reality and concluded: the former is not worthy of envy, and the latter is not worthy of curse? It is not a curse, but it is not worthy of fear.

Once you have reached a clear conclusion, you have to make a choice: Do you act according to these conclusions, even though you are unhappy, or do you look for a conclusion that makes you happy and then act according to that conclusion?

Mu Zhengguang chose the former.

Envy has decreased. Hatred has also decreased.

The fog in the mountains thinned and the stars in the sky became brighter.

Mu Zhengguang's "climbing" speed is so fast that it makes people frightened. Yang Shuyu decides to give him a little challenge: after he left the campus, there are fewer things that make him envious or hateful. In such a favorable environment, his "progress" cannot be regarded as real progress.

Mobile phone applications often push some highly inflammatory videos and articles to Mu Zhengguang.

When the message was first pushed to him, Mu Zhengguang just glanced at the title and turned the page. He had never deliberately searched for this content. He was not interested in such things. Whether the lives of people outside were good or bad, it had nothing to do with him.

Love and being loved, hate and being hated, happiness and misfortune, luck and misfortune, the differences, disagreements, injustices, and fights between men and women, the trampling of rules, the trampling of marriage, the trampling of morality, and the trampling of human nature...

After Mu Zhengguang clicked on the first video and article, similar videos and articles kept popping up, and he couldn't block them all. Some videos and articles were impressive just by their titles, and they made people feel uneasy for a long time after watching them.

Yang Shuyu showed mercy: There is a small number of people in the world who can overcome extremely low concentrations of sin, and these videos and articles happen to fall into the category of extremely low concentrations of sin.

Mu Zhengguang's emotions were affected by this information. When he was extremely sad, angry, or disgusted, his conscience was disturbed and his reason became confused. He often came to wrong conclusions, did wrong things, and regretted it after he regained consciousness.

But Mu Zhengguangguang was not without progress. He read many viewpoints, and gradually formed a standard for measuring right and wrong. However, sometimes he could not judge, and sometimes he could not accept the judgement. The outward manifestation of being unable to accept was that his emotions were out of control.

Half a year has passed, and the alignment has been formed, but Mu Zhengguang is still climbing the mountain. If he cannot climb this mountain, he will still have the possibility of betrayal. Moreover, this mountain is not something that can be climbed once and everything will be fine. In special circumstances, it will appear again.

On April 2027, 4, Xu's mother called Mu Zhengguang and asked him to go to the roadside so that they could burn some paper for Xu together.

Mu Zhengguang declined his aunt's request, citing Xu's last words: "No need to hold a memorial service for me."

At this time, Yang Shuyu knew that Mu Zhengguang was about to stand up.

On this day, Mu Zhengguang did not go to Xu's grave to pay his respects, but buried the note in a flowerpot that Xu had planted himself.

Mu Zhengguang buried the first note in the soil, October 2021, 10 notes. Cui Yunqing originally thought that he would bury the notes one by one, and when he buried the second note, he would regret it, and then she could naturally think that he did not let go of Xu, and let him continue to be paralyzed in the wheelchair. However, as the 15 notes were buried in the soil, Mu Zhengguang's attitude was beyond doubt, and she had nothing to say.

After burying the note, Mu Zhengguang tried to stand up. He would do this action dozens, even hundreds of times every day.

Mu Zhengguang had failed tens of thousands of times, but this time, he succeeded. He stood there blankly, looking at the blooming flowers and the blue note, tears welling up in his eyes.

That afternoon, Mu Zhengguang went to Xu's home, found his aunt, and returned the bank card to her.

Xu's mother was very happy to see Mu Zhengguang could walk, but two things that happened today made her feel uncomfortable: he didn't burn paper for his daughter, and he returned the bank card to me. Is he a heartless person? Probably not. But why did he do this? Did he change his mind? It can't be said that he changed his mind, it's not that serious. It's actually a good thing that he can let it go.

Xu's mother had a lot of questions, but she was too embarrassed to ask, so the matter just let it go.

After returning the bank card, Mu Zhengguang did not go home immediately. Instead, he walked to the side of the road and looked at his classmate's grave from a distance.

If we have the same goals, maybe we can meet again one day.

Mu Zhengguang packed his summer clothes, bought a ticket to the city where his parents lived, stayed there for a few days, then took the clothes to Changyu City and rented a house near Baisong University, paying a month's deposit and three months' rent.

"Don't bump into him again this time. His journey in the world of regret is about to end. If you have any brilliant ideas, you can wait until he goes to the transitional world to put them into practice."

Yang Shuyu knew Cui Yunqing very well. With her personality, she would never let Mu Zhengguang go easily. At that time, she wanted Mu Zhengguang's legs to disappear, and now, she might still have this idea.

"I understand. If you don't want to hit me, then don't hit me."

Cui Yunqing reluctantly agreed to Yang Shuyu's request. The nature of the transitional world does not allow for many fantastic ideas. It is too difficult to defeat him in the short time in the transitional world, so he can only use more terrible means.

Mu Zhengguang lives outside the school, but he spends more time in school than outside. In school, he sees flowers, trees, teachers, and classmates.

Mu Zhengguang looked at his classmates, some were running, some were playing volleyball, some were playing badminton... the vitality of youth, the charm of maturity... age gives different people different colors. He suddenly thought that if the world stopped and everyone stayed at their current age, it would not be a good thing.

Boys and girls traveling together are not worthy of envy, and contact beyond the limit is not worthy of curse. Cursing others for such a trivial matter is not something a normal person should do.

They can be together and appear here at this time because it is destined. However, it is not destined that I should envy them. My heart and my thoughts are not destined. I can choose what kind of mood and what kind of thoughts to use to treat these people and these things.

I was the one who chose to be jealous, I was the one who chose to hate, I was the one who chose to curse, and I was the one who chose to be a bystander. I used to be someone who accepted others' envy, and I also used to be someone who cast envy, but now, I don't need others' envy, and I don't need to envy others.

Mu Zhengguang's last period of college life seemed to be spent on vacation. While on vacation, he did not forget to participate in campus recruitment and submit his resume. Later, he found a job, completed the defense, and received his graduation certificate and degree certificate.

On that day, Mu Zhengguang walked around the school carrying a heavy graduation certificate.

The campus and the area around it had left him with painful memories. A car accident at a crossroads sent Xiao Xu to another world, leaving him in a wheelchair for ten months. But this place also left him with happy memories. Now, he is about to leave here and may never come back. At this moment, memories are no longer important.

All the bad things that happen in this world, from the minor ones like talking bad about people behind their backs to the serious ones like insulting people in person, can mostly be described as "involuntarily". Although they are involuntarily, the nature of the sin will not change.

There is no need to deliberately curse or hate these people, just draw a line with them. Not in form, but in what they say, do, and convey, as well as their malicious intent, and do not respond to them with the same actions or emotions.

Everyone in this world is walking towards sin involuntarily. Some people walk faster, some walk slower, some cannot turn back for various reasons, and some can turn back halfway.

I have also been on the wrong path and pursuing the wrong direction, and I am very glad that I still have the opportunity to turn back.

I don't hate this place, nor do I hate everyone here, no matter whether their nature is inclined towards good or evil. My assessment may not be accurate, but their fate and ending are definitely accurate.

They have their destiny, I have mine, my destiny is not connected with Xiao Xu's, she died, my destiny is still going on, even, can I live better than before? Maybe, but not because of the graduation certificate and degree certificate in my hand, but because of the wrong and right choices I made in the past few years.

Hatred and curses were all gone. Mu Zhengguang's answer was close to full marks. Yang Shuyu couldn't help but feel happy for him: almost all types of extremely low concentrations of sin were not enough to pollute him, so what about low concentrations of sin? In the next regretful world, Cui Yunqing should test him with low concentrations of sin, right? I hope he can pass the test.

After getting his diploma, Mu Zhengguang did not return to Qichuan City immediately, but stayed in Changyu City for a few more days.

There are many girls in the Normal University next to Baisong University. Mu Zhengguang had heard this news a long time ago and believed it, but he had never been to the Normal University. Before leaving the city, he wanted to take a look at this place that some of his classmates thought about day and night and lingered on.

Mu Zhengguang saw many girls, and there were even more boys and girls walking side by side. He suddenly remembered what a roommate once said, "Love on campus is the purest and most beautiful. After graduation, there will be no love, it's all about exchanging interests."

In fact, these people were not pure in school, and after leaving school, they became even worse, viewing marriage as a transaction and a tool, and adding many complicated requirements and conditions to marriage. They are pessimistic and fearful of marriage, they hate marriage, and even regard their partners as enemies. They deserve it and ask for it.

However, there is a requirement that can be included in marriage, but it cannot be summed up in one word as they say.

How your partner treats your body and how he or she views the boundaries of relationships between men and women, whether or not they have done anything out of line under the guidance and constraints of these ideas and viewpoints, and the final result are the words they say.

Although the one word they say is important, it is not enough. In most cases, the correct idea is enough to ensure a satisfactory result, but a satisfactory result cannot prove whether the idea is correct.

However, considering that there are very few cases and that people's opinions can be disguised, but the results once formed cannot be changed, using the results as a criterion can make people feel more at ease and help them make more appropriate choices.

Mu Zhengguang found a classroom in the Normal University, sat down, put on headphones, and listened to Xu's last words for the last time.

"Sister, our relationship ends here, thank you. I understand your good intentions, and I also understand the inappropriate answers you gave that were not beneficial to me. I have finally caught up with you. I will no longer like you, but I will always like the standards you taught me."

Mu Zhengguang closed his eyes, as if he was talking to himself. Silent words and silent tears stirred up huge ups and downs in his heart, but as he deleted the video, the long-lost ease and calmness instantly buried all the ups and downs. It was just like the journey along the way, with countless twists and turns, and finally reached the destined ending.

(End of this chapter)