Chapter 969 Why Hanging?

"But please don't laugh at me."

“I’m not sure if what I said is true.”

The girl gave both of them a shot of prevention.

"Well, just say whatever you want to say."

Xiao Xiao smiled, "We will judge the rest."

"……Um."

The girl looked at Brother Xiao Xiao, then looked at the policeman who nodded at her, and nodded vigorously.

……

"Although Xiao Rui and I are not in the same class, she is my junior high school classmate."

It was a somewhat confusing beginning, but Meng Jixi, who knew all the information about the four suicides, quickly reacted, "Xiao Rui? Are you referring to the second student who committed suicide, Han Rui?"

"Ah."

The girl nodded, "We have a good relationship."

"Maybe it's because we are the kind of quiet and hardworking students."

“So we are very comfortable with each other and have a lot of common topics in study.”

……

The next words seemed a little difficult to say. The girl hesitated for a long time before she said softly, "We are not smart either."

It is not easy to get a hardworking and competitive teenager to admit this.

“I have worked very hard, but the results are still not satisfactory.”

"In junior high school, our grades were always among the best, but in this high school, our grades can only hover in the upper middle level and cannot go any further."

“We’re all devastated.”

"Xiao Rui is under more pressure than I am."

"Xiao Rui's father is always busy with work and basically doesn't care about Xiao Rui."

"Her mother favors boys over girls. The only thing she cares about Xiaorui is her grades."

"Xiao Rui's good grades are her capital for showing off."

"She never cared about Xiaorui's health and never attended any of her parents' meetings."

"Whenever Xiao Rui failed an exam, she would mock and scold her in a very unpleasant way."

Thinking of what she heard when she called her home in junior high school, the girl couldn't help but clench her fists.

She thought at the time, how could there be such a mother?
She was angry and amused at the same time. What era is this? How can there still be such a son-biased mother?

Aren’t they all your own flesh and blood?
However, the only thing she could do at that time was to hang up the phone silently. The next time she saw Xiaorui, she pretended that she heard nothing and lied to the girl that she hung up the phone when she heard her mother's voice.

She knew that speaking out about this would do nothing and would only embarrass both of them.

Because she couldn't help the other person in any way.

This is Xiaorui's family affair.

Xiaorui's mother did not commit domestic violence.

What could she do?

There was nothing she could do.

……

"Since entering high school, Xiaorui's grades have naturally dropped a lot compared to her junior high school where she was always in the top three. In her mother's opinion, Xiaorui's grades are now ranked 11th or 12th."

"Among Xiaorui's mother's friends, Xiaorui's high school is the best."

"Xiao Rui's mother always scolds Xiao Rui, saying that she doesn't study hard and that she doesn't know what she is doing all day long."

"Why did I give birth to such a stupid daughter..."

"Xiao Rui cried many times."

"But maybe it's because the burden is too heavy, Xiaorui's test scores are getting worse and worse."

"She really studied hard and read until the early morning every day."

"She came to see me the night before she committed suicide."

The girl pursed her lips tightly, tears trickling down her eyes, "She said she couldn't hold on any longer."

"She said she didn't understand why her grades couldn't improve even though she had worked so hard. Why did her mother always blame her?"

"She has tried her best."

"She said she seemed to be hallucinating."

"The voice asked her, if she was in so much pain, why didn't she end her life?"

"She said, yeah, she doesn't know what she's still holding on to?"

"I was frightened."

"I comforted her, saying that she lived on campus in high school and wouldn't see her mother often."

"Don't answer her mother's calls in the future." "Or if you answer, just put it aside and let her scold you. Don't take it seriously."

"I said a lot."

"I thought Xiao Rui was convinced by me."

"result……"

The girl covered her face and sobbed.

"If only I had paid more attention to her."

"I knew Xiaorui was in a very bad condition and heard what she said, but I didn't take it seriously at all."

“I just wallowed in my own frustration.”

"But-"

The girl raised her head, tears streaming down her face, "I am in pain too."

"I was already feeling very uncomfortable."

"The pain of two people combined almost suffocated me."

"So, the next day, I didn't want to see her at all."

"If I had gone to see her at that time, she wouldn't have committed suicide that night, right?"

……

"After Xiaorui died, I was in great pain."

“I also started to have auditory hallucinations.”

"That's the devil's voice!"

"It's encouraging me to die."

"I bought a rope to hang myself, and it's under my bed."

The girl looked dazed and a bit crazy, "If I die, it will all be over."

“I’m so close to putting it into practice.”

"But I met Brother Xiao Xiao."

The girl's mouth curled up slightly, "It was the first time that someone caught me when I fell."

"Brother Xiao Xiao also gave me a cake."

"We are just strangers."

"But just because they are strangers, this kindness, even if small, makes me feel warm."

“I don’t think things are that bad yet.”

“You can only encounter beautiful things if you live.”

"I don't want to die."

"Then, the voice disappeared too."

"So, I guess that voice is really just the dark side of my heart?"

……

"Brother Xiao Xiao, if Xiao Rui could have met someone like Brother Xiao Xiao at that time, would she not have died?"

It was not the case that she and Xiao Rui, who were in the same boat, huddled together for warmth.

She was already struggling to take care of herself at the time, so how could she support Xiaorui?

Instead, it would be enough to have a stranger like Brother Xiao Xiao, who would hand Xiao Rui a tissue and tell her not to cry when she was crying secretly.

that's it.

Xiaorui has always been a strong and determined girl.

Always push yourself hard.

However, such a Xiao Rui would often be deeply moved by a little warmth.

The courage to work hard will surge in your heart again.

However, Xiao Rui did not get even this little bit of encouragement.

She finally chose to end her own life.

"I'm lucky, right?"

Tears kept falling from the girl's eyes, but the corners of her mouth curved up deeply. Tears flowed into her mouth, and she felt bitter. "If I hadn't met Master Xiao, I would have hanged myself."

"Why hang yourself?"

Xiao Xiao's question was quite disappointing.

The girl and Meng Jixi were both stunned.

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(End of this chapter)