Chapter 676 Self-blame and flowers
"Because, I have my mother and that's enough."

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"I came back from school that day."

“Originally I didn’t want to live on campus.”

"I'm worried about my mother being alone at home."

"But my mother insisted that I live in the school."

Su Xun's expression was somewhat helpless. "I said I must experience the feeling of living on campus with my classmates."

“College was my first time living on campus.”

He then explained.

……

And he never refused Su's mother's request.
So, he compromised.

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He knew from a young age that it was hard for his mother to raise him alone.

Some people also told him that his mother would always remarry, and he would then be a burden.

Moreover, Su's mother, who has a new family, will not be as nice to him as before.

She will have a new baby.

He was also afraid and resisted it.

He will always remember that time when Mother Su held him in her arms and said to him, "No, Xiaoxun will always be your most important baby."

Mom has always been the most important person to him.

He is also his only relative.

……

"But what did I see?"

"I really regret it."

“It would be great if I didn’t live on campus.”

“Maybe I can’t change anything.”

"After all, what ability do I have to fight monsters?"

……

"But at least I can stand in front of my mother."

"At least-"

"Do you want to die together?"

Xiao Xiao suddenly spoke.

Su Xun was stunned for a moment, then lowered his eyes to look at the purple wild flowers, but with an attitude of acquiescence.

"And your mother's soul will still be imprisoned by the beauty spider."

"But this time no one will save her."

"Because the only son who was willing to fight monsters for two years to save her is dead."

"Besides, a mother would be even more painful if she saw her son die in front of her to save her."

Xiao Xiao looked down at Su Xun who was squatting on the ground. His expression was calm, and his words were also devoid of any emotion, but they made Su Xun freeze in an instant.

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A purple petal detached from the calyx.

Su Xun stared blankly at the petals between his fingers.

Just now he lost control of his strength and pulled the petals off.

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A gust of wind blew, and Su Xun's hand subconsciously loosened a little.

The purple petals flew out in an instant, were carried high into the sky by the wind, and soon disappeared.

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The purple wild flowers were blown by the wind and seemed to be about to burst into pieces at any moment.

However, in the end, the flower stalk was still there, but only a calyx remained at the top of the stalk.

The purple petals were blown high into the sky by the wind, and were soon carried away into the distance along with the petals in Su Xun's hand.

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Su Xun slowly clenched his hands into fists, and he suddenly looked up and glared at Xiao Xiao.

Xiao Xiao didn't even look at him.

The line of sight looking into the distance seems to be following those purple petals, and the profile shows a hint of indifference.

"Do you like this ending better?"

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Su Xun gritted his teeth.

How could he possibly like this ending!

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But...if he had been with his mother at the time, this result would have been inevitable.

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He is not Superman, he cannot transform.

Apart from using his body as a shield, he didn't know how to protect his mother from a monster that coveted her.

However, such means are like a bad joke in front of monsters.

Then, he will be killed by the monster.

……

What about the mother?

The monster was originally coming for the mother.

The results are obvious. …

His death had no other effect except slightly delaying the time for his mother to be captured by the monster.

He couldn't save his mother.

Even if he sacrificed his own life.

This is really a despairing fact.

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He suddenly felt as if he had returned to the past two years when he could not tell the difference between day and night, or between cold and heat.

Because every day, at all times, his heart felt like it was in an ice cellar, cold to the bone.

Everywhere his vision reached was a thick gray fog.

There is no light and no color.

He couldn't find a way out.

Even the road under my feet is almost invisible.

It's really useless.

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Su Xun fell into deep self-loathing.

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"Su Xun."

The sound was not loud, but it seemed as if the whole world was shaking because of it.

Su Xun's body shook, and his eyes regained focus.

His face was blank and shocked.

Then his eyes suddenly widened and his face was filled with shock.

Suddenly, purple wild flowers bloomed in the vast wilderness.

But in the blink of an eye, the originally green fields turned into a sea of ​​purple flowers.

Even the distant sky was faintly rendered a light purple.

I have to say, this scene is shocking.

It is even more stunningly beautiful.

Su Xun stood up suddenly, muttering to himself, "So beautiful."

There seemed to be a light shining in his eyes, "Mom will definitely like it!"

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"Ah."

Xiao Xiao nodded. As expected of Feifei, who is known for his good looks, the scene he created was beautiful.

"I think my aunt would like you to bring her a bouquet of purple flowers."

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Su Xun thought of the flowers that were always in the room every day.

Not only purple, but also other colors.

Su's mother said that flowers of every color are beautiful.

But she still likes purple the best.

So the main character in his vase is always purple flowers.

Flowers of other colors can only play supporting roles.

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He remembered Su's mother's happy smile as she fiddled with the flowers.

He also thought about what Su's mother said to him, "When you are in a bad mood, look at these beautiful flowers and you will feel much better."

"However, Xiaoxun is a boy, so he might not like flowers that much, right?"

He didn't answer at the time because in his opinion, it was indeed not very manly for a boy to like flowers.

He wants to be a man who protects his mother.

But, in fact, he likes flowers.

Because every time she sees flowers, my mother will be very happy.

Then, he was very happy too, and he also liked flowers that could make his mother happy.

Influenced by his mother, he also likes purple, especially purple flowers.

Because every time he gave his mother purple flowers, her smile was the most beautiful.

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Su Xun gives flowers to her mother every year.

At first it was just wild flowers, because he had no money and he would not ask Su's mother for money.

The first bouquet of flowers he bought for his mother was violets, which he bought with the prize money he won from a competition.

From then on, sending flowers became his habit.

He suddenly realized that he hadn't sent flowers to his mother in two years.

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"Su Xun, don't blame yourself."

"You've done a great job."

"Your survival is the greatest comfort to your aunt."

Xiao Xiao looked at Su Xun, who was a little dazed as if he didn't know what he was thinking about, and there was a hint of gentleness in his expression.

"Wake up."

"Send my aunt a bouquet of her favorite purple flowers."

"My aunt will be very happy."

(End of this chapter)