Chapter 473: Alcoholism. Questions and Answers
After all, Liu Xi is no longer a student in the ivory tower. Years of social experience have tempered her character.

She quickly regained her composure.

But the thoughts in my mind are still confused.

She frowned and spoke slowly to Master Xiao about her confusion and pain.

"...When I found out that the child had a worm in his body, my first reaction was to take it out. I had to take the worm out of the child's body no matter what."

"But, later on, when I knew that the wine bug could bring wealth to my child, even at a price, I was deeply hesitant."

"I don't know which choice is right and best for the child."

……

"The greatest hope that parents have for their children is that they will live a smooth, prosperous and healthy life."

“No parent wants their child to suffer.”

……

“Money is an extremely important measure of success.”

"Now I have this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. Even if my child is unsuccessful in the future, I can guarantee him a life of wealth and prosperity, and let him live a life without worries."

"At least I don't have to bow down for a few pieces of silver."

Having said this, Liu Qian smiled faintly.

"only……"

Liu Qian took a deep breath, and it seemed that what she was going to say next was extremely difficult. She opened and closed her lips several times before she spoke softly, but her voice was shaking more and more, and she even choked a little, "When I think about my child growing up and getting old, and then one day closing his eyes forever, his body will be eaten by a worm."

"He was eaten by a bug, and not a single bone was left!"

"…My heart…is always feeling depressed and uncomfortable."

"feeling bad."

"In this case, will my child never be able to rest in peace after death?"

"Will my child not even have a chance to reincarnate?"

Liu Qian's voice became softer and softer as she spoke, her eyes gradually became unfocused, and by the end she was almost whispering.

Her face was extremely pale, her thin body was trembling slightly, and her hands were tightly twisted together.

"Master Xiao, do you think our decision... is really correct?"

Liu Qian's eyes focused, the light in them was bright enough to be blinding, yet so fragile that it seemed like it would be extinguished immediately by a slight breeze.

……

Such a Liu Qian makes people feel sympathy.

However, Xiao Xiao slightly lowered his eyelids, feeling somewhat surprised at his unusually calm heart.

He sighed a little and seemed a little indifferent.

His expression was still gentle, but the whispering voice inexplicably made Liu Qian shiver.

"If you're so worried, why didn't you bring it up just now?"

When Mr. Zhang announced their decision, and when they were chatting and laughing and toasting at the dinner table, there were obviously so many opportunities to express their own ideas.

Xiao Xiao didn't know whether this haggard and worried mother tried to do anything during the week that the Zhang family was considering the matter?
I don’t know if her silence today is a compromise after being rejected many times?

He only saw Liu Xi's silence today, as well as her implicit stiffness and resistance towards the child.

A contradictory posture of wanting to get closer but unconsciously moving away.

……

Xiao Xiao recalled that when the child grabbed Liu Xi's pants, although she did not push the child away, there was a rather shocking disgust and fear in her eyes.

Although it was just a very faint trace, and since she came to find him and talked to him like this, it means that even if Liu Xi felt a little psychologically uncomfortable with the child with worms in his body, her maternal love for the child still prevailed.

……

However, she had so many worries but kept them to herself and only came to him to confide in them at the last minute. So, what answer did she want from him?

He had said before that this was their family affair, and neither choice was good or bad; it all depended on their own choice.

Or, did she just want to get some comfort from him so that she could put aside her worries with peace of mind?

Was it too harsh for him to think that?
Is he too harsh for a mother?

Xiao Xiao curled the corners of his mouth inexplicably. Perhaps he was still brooding over the disgust for children in Liu Qian's eyes before?
It's true that children are innocent, but they are often the most sensitive. Xiao Xiao remembered the moment the child shrank and was confused, as well as the fear and grievance he felt when he noticed the look in his mother's lowered eyes.

Even so, the child still stubbornly held on to his mother's pants which had been wrinkled by him.

Because...compared to others, mom is at least still by his side.

Xiao Xiao did not miss the child's action of subconsciously turning his head to look at other people after being frightened by his mother's gaze.

However, even though the distance was not far, it seemed like a deep chasm. The little child looked up, but did not get a single glance back.

Not getting any response from his gaze, the child slowly lowered his little head.

Xiao Xiao's hearing, which was far superior to that of ordinary people, allowed him to hear the almost whispering call: Mom.

……

However, Xiao Xiao looked at Liu Qian.

Although children are sensitive, they are also the most forgetful.

He believed that as long as the child's mother overcame her psychological barriers and treated the child as always.

There shouldn't be any trace left in the child's heart.

……

"I……"

Liu Qian tried to explain, but after saying one word, she was speechless.

Finally, Liu Qian bowed her head deeply and said, "I'm sorry."

She felt that she was in a very embarrassing situation now.

And very ashamed.

It seemed as if all the secret, selfish, and obscure thoughts that he had buried deep in his heart, which he had almost not noticed, were exposed nakedly in front of the young Master Xiao in front of him.

When she suddenly realized this, she had no way to explain it, and she couldn't even make a single excuse.

……

"You don't need to say sorry to me."

Xiao Xiao's eyes curved gently, "I have no right to interfere with your choice."

"Just, what is your choice?"

"Are you sure?"

……

"my choice?"

Liu Qian muttered to herself.

After a long time, her expression calmed down.

"Master Xiao."

Xiao Xiao's gaze was like a quiet stream in a deep pool, revealing a tender and gentle feeling.

"The Zhang family's decision is my decision."

Liu Qian's voice was soft, but it also had a bit of firmness and calmness.

This is not ancient times, and she is not a miserable daughter-in-law.

In the previous week, the Zhang family discussed this matter repeatedly and consulted her opinion many times.

It was indeed her father-in-law who first suggested not removing the child's alcohol bug.

Later, everyone including her agreed to it.

……

By her generation, people actually don’t care that much about what happens after death.

For her, the most important thing is that her children live well while they are alive.

　ps: Thank you Jingkui for the reward (*︶*)!

　　
　
(End of this chapter)