Chapter 439 Timid and Cowardly Heart

Only Xiao Xiao and Guo Shan were left in the dormitory.

"Can we talk now?"

Xiao Xiao carried the little girl to sit on the chair, then let go of her hand, pulled over another chair and sat down and asked.

……

The little girl sat upright on the chair, her two hands seemingly placed normally on her knees, but her delicate hands were tightly clutching her pants below.

Seeing this, Xiao Xiao stood up, took a plastic cup from the table, and filled it with hot water.

When the water temperature cooled down a little, Xiao Xiao handed the cup to the little girl.

"Be careful it's hot."

"Thank you."

The little girl took the cup of water carefully. The slight feeling of heat passed from the palm of her hand to her heart. The real feeling of holding something in her hand made her uneasy heart seem to have a place to rely on, and slowly calmed down a little.

She couldn't help but raise the cup, lean close to the cup and take a small sip. A thin stream of heat slid down her throat into her stomach. For a moment, the heat radiated from the inside out, and she couldn't help but feel a little comfortable and relaxed in every part of her body.

Guo Shan let out a long breath and looked at Xiao Xiao.

Xiao Xiao gave her an encouraging smile.

Guo Shan also subconsciously responded with a shy smile.

……

"Master Xiao."

Guo Shan put the cup on the table behind her and jumped off the chair.

Xiao Xiao watched the little girl's actions quietly, without asking any questions or stopping her.

……

"Thank you, Master Xiao!"

Guo Shan suddenly bowed 90 degrees, lowered her head, and spoke loudly.

"Because of your brother?"

Xiao Xiao looked at the child who seemed to be trembling all over with intense emotions, but his small body exuded a sense of determination.

It was this feeling that made Xiao Xiao not immediately reach out to help the child, but instead asked with some doubt.

He felt not only gratitude from the child, but also regret, and even... self-loathing?
why?
There were some shallow wrinkles between Xiao Xiao's brows.

……

"Well, thank you for saving my brother."

"Thank you, Master Xiao."

"Thank you very much."

As the little girl spoke, her voice became more and more tearful, with a repressed emotion filling it.

……

Xiao Xiao also stood up from his chair and squatted in front of the little girl again.

He reached out and gently touched the top of the child's head, who had been keeping his head down.

"You're welcome."

The clear, low voice was filled with a soothing tenderness, "I'm glad I could help your brother."

……

Maybe it was because Xiao Xiao's voice was too gentle, maybe it was because the caress on her head was too warm, or maybe it was because Xiao Xiao was the master who saved her brother, so Guo Shan subconsciously felt that if Xiao Xiao was there, she would not have to worry about anything or be afraid of anything.

Maybe she just suppressed it for too long.

So, "Wow~", Guo Shan burst into tears.

……

Xiao Xiao: ...

There seem to be more children crying in front of him recently?

However, after all, this child cried most like a child.

The corners of Xiao Xiao's mouth couldn't help but curl up in a helpless arc.

Hysterical and screaming at the top of his lungs, as if he had suffered the greatest injustice in the world.

He is obviously just a child who knows nothing.

……

Xiao Xiao gently held the child's body, patted the child's back with quite a bit of practiced movements, and whispered soothingly: "Be good."

The child suddenly raised his face, tears streaming down his face, his eyes red, his mouth pursed, his face tightly wrinkled. Xiao Xiao teased in a gentle voice: "Look, you're crying like a little cat."

However, Guo Shan seemed not to hear Xiao Xiao's teasing. Her eyes were wide open but seemed to have lost focus and looked a little dazed.

She murmured, "I, hiccup, didn't mean to do that."

"I really, hiccup, didn't mean it."

"I'm so scared, hiccup."

"Mingming, hiccup, brother, hiccup, I'm even more scared."

……

Because I cried so hard, I gasped heavily when I spoke.

Because her tears kept flowing, Guo Shan felt liquid sliding into her mouth while she was speaking.

The bitter taste made her tears flow even more violently.

It’s really hard.

……

Scattered words and sobs made Guo Shan's speech even more unclear.

However, Xiao Xiao seemed to have caught something from it, but it was not clear yet.

He patiently helped the little girl calm down and said, "Don't be anxious. Talk slowly."

Xiao Xiao's soothing and gentle tone of voice eased Guo Shan's nearly collapsed emotions a little.

She took a deep breath and slowly told out the secret that had been buried in her heart for a long time.

……

Guo Shan is a good brother. For the sake of his sister and his family, he endured everything silently.

Since they can't see it, what is there to blame?
Guo Shan told himself this.

If they could all see it, they would definitely not leave me alone.

Guo Shan firmly believed this.

……

Even though Guo Shan was so lonely and desperate during those two years, and wanted someone like crazy to listen to his heart and not let him feel that there were only him and the monsters left in his world.

What a terrible world that is.

Even if his family treated him the same as at the beginning, they could not see the monsters and did not understand his pain. Even if he was unwilling to admit it, sometimes, just sometimes, he would feel resentment.

But, after all, they are my beloved mother and sister.

He repeatedly comforted himself, there was nothing he could do, they couldn't see it.

Yes, they can’t see.

……

But what if they could see?
……

Guo Shan’s sister, Guo Shan, is actually visible!
Even if you can only see a little.

Even though Guo Shan only had a vague idea at the beginning and didn't understand what was going on, two years were enough for her to understand clearly what terrible thing had happened to her brother.

She should have spoken out.

She should have faced it with her brother.

She should have told her brother not to be afraid and that she would always be with him.

……

But she didn't, she did nothing!
She didn't tell her brother that she could see too.

She did not comfort her brother and tell him not to be afraid.

She didn't even spend more time with her brother.

She pretended like she didn't notice anything, she smiled like she knew nothing!
……

But, no, no!

She clearly saw it, even if she only saw a glimpse of it, she knew that there was something disgusting and terrifying on her brother's body.

Sometimes when she got close to her brother, she could even faintly smell a decadent, sweet, and disgusting smell.

She saw so clearly that her brother's face was getting paler day by day, and his body was getting thinner day by day.

She looked at her brother who became more silent and gloomy day by day, and she couldn't even ask why!
……

I am so timid and cowardly that I hate myself more and more every day, but I am powerless to change!
(End of this chapter)