Chapter 2612 Comparison
So what should he call?

The boy became confused.

He found it difficult to call him brother.

It feels a bit weird to call him "big brother".

Are there any other names?

classmate?

Senior?

The boy took a deep breath.

"Xiao...Brother..."

He finally chose this title.

"What I saw... was a monster?"

……

"Ah."

Xiao Xiao didn't feel impatient at all with the boy's repeated confirmation.

After all, this is indeed a fact that takes some time to accept.

……

"so……"

The boy asked a question that had been weighing on his mind for years but that he had never dared to address.

"They're all real...?"

He is not a stubborn person.

Not a very opinionated person.

If possible, he is willing to listen to other people's opinions.

Especially the opinions of mom and dad.

Both mom and dad said he was seeing things.

They even took him to the hospital.

When he grew up, he suddenly realized why his parents insisted on taking him to the hospital even though he was not sick.

Mom and Dad think there’s something wrong with his mental state, right?

To be honest…

When he grew up, he also looked up a lot of information on his own.

The more he looked at it, the more he wondered if there was something really wrong with him.

fantasy?

Conjecture?

false?

he does not know.

He couldn't control the doubt in his heart.

He was afraid of unknown creatures.

I am even more afraid that all this is just my imagination.

He found……

He was more frightened by the fact that they were unreal than by the fact that they were real.

He couldn't help but shudder.

Goose bumps all over my body.

……

He had never been a determined man.

How can he be sure that he really saw it when only he can see it?
Instead of having mental problems?
……

Is he a psychopath?
The boy instinctively resisted this speculation.

He is normal.

He is not sick.

Because he was afraid of going to the hospital, he always took good care of his health.

Just so that I don’t have to force myself to go to the hospital.

His spirit...

His mental state is also normal.

He believes that apart from being timid and easily frightened, he has a positive and upright outlook on life.

How could such a person have mental problems?

……

It seemed as if there were always two little men engaged in a tug of war in his mind.

Debating whether what he saw was real or an illusion?

This dilemma put a great mental burden on him.

He is getting thinner and thinner.

Uncontrollably becoming thin.

But after entering puberty, he grew very fast like bamboo shoots after a spring rain.

Maybe most boys hope to be as tall as possible.

But he is not.

He wished he were shorter.

It will not be so eye-catching.

……

He is so eye-catching now.

Whenever he walked on the street, people would always point fingers at him.

He could occasionally hear some whispers.

He realized that in the eyes of others, he looked like he was seriously ill or had suffered a huge blow...

All in all, they are all pretty miserable settings.

Although he felt that he was quite miserable, his misery was far from what passers-by had guessed.

"Didn't you see it?"

Seeing the boy opening his mouth hesitantly, Xiao Xiao smiled slightly, then restrained his expression and looked serious.

"it is true."

He knew the doubts and uncertainties of boys.

accidental.

Just a coincidence.

He would also have such a trance.

Philip: Are they all true?

Do they really exist around him?
It wasn't his imagination. It wasn't his fantasy.

He lives under the same blue sky with them.

Breathing the same air.

Bathed in the same sunshine.

“What you see is real.”

Xiao Xiao frowned.

"trust yourself."

".Um."

The boy nodded slightly.

This problem really troubled him for a long time.

Like a maggot attached to the bone.

Like a shadow.

It made him anxious all day long.

He was so startled, on the one hand, because he was indeed a little scared about the monster.

On the other hand, it is also because of this doubt that is like a thorn in my throat.

What if all this is false.
Every time he thought of this possibility, he felt like he couldn't breathe.

What if all this is false.
His life was ruined.

He is a madman.
fortunately
None of this is fake.

It's all true.

The doubts that had been lingering in the boy's mind for many years were finally resolved, and he felt a bit like he was exhausted.

Great.

It's good if it's not fake
It's fine as long as it's not his own problem.
That's great.

The boy covered his face.

After a long time, the boy raised his head.

The corners of the eyes are a little red.

My eyes are dry.

He straightened himself slightly.

".Thanks."

He did not doubt the other party's words.

Because the other party really saw it.

He was the only one of his kind he had met in all these years.

similar
Can he say that?
The boy smiled bitterly.

he does not know.

Brother Xiao's aura is too different from his.

I always feel that putting them on the same level is not so appropriate.

".Thanks"

The boy lowered his head.

“I’ve always been conflicted”

“I’ve always been scared.”

The boy couldn't help but take a deep breath.

"Anxiety..."

"I'm so worried that my head is going to explode..."

“I still can’t find an answer…”

“No one can be found”

Come and tell him an answer.

Unexpectedly, this time by chance, he met Brother Xiao.

He never expected that the answer he had been thinking about for so many years came from Brother Xiao.

I always feel that the world is magical.

He almost gave up.
What understanding look?

All he saw was confusion, embarrassment, and surprise.

In the end, he subconsciously avoided other people's gazes.

But in the end, he still met people of the same kind.

Although Brother Xiao looks completely different from his situation.

Brother Xiao is very capable.

And his distress, his struggle, his fear.
All the places he cares about
Brother Xiao didn't seem to care at all.

Some of these people made him unable to tell whether he was more happy, jealous, or dissatisfied.
Is this what they call same person with different destinies?

The boy looked at the corners of his mouth raised in the tea.

How ugly.

He frowned.

That smile is so ugly.

Is he really so stingy and calculative?
Realizing this, the boy felt even worse.

".sorry."

The boy apologized again.

".I. am. envious. No-"

The boy exhaled slowly.

"I'm jealous of you."

"Even if we see it differently."

“I was just a kid then.”

“But now I’m grown up.”

"I"

"But."

“There is no difference between me now and the kid I was back then.”

Rather than saying that there is no difference at all, it would be better to say that he is going backwards as he gets older.

When there is no comparison, he can still deceive himself.

With the comparison, he just felt embarrassed.

　ps: Thank you Cangqiong Qianjue and Hatake Kakashi for the rewards~(*︶*)!

　　
　
(End of this chapter)