Chapter 261 Past
The ink painting-like scroll unfolds, and the black and white street scene is tinged with color: the green boulevard, the blue sky, the black exterior wall of the radiation power generation building, and the mother's stern white face.

Children aged five or six are very playful and always carefree. The little girl is running with a small windmill, which is spinning whirringly.

The air is filled with a cheerful atmosphere, and the ethereal humming sounds in the children's hearts.

The little girl was as delicate as a fairy, with a pair of eyes as clear as crystal, a wrinkled nose, and a pouting little mouth that was particularly cute.

Her mere appearance made many people turn their heads.

Behind her was a beautiful woman in her twenties, with a graceful figure, swaying like a willow tree in the wind with every step. But between her brows, there was a lingering gloom.

When she was a child, the little girl often heard others compliment her that she had perfectly inherited her mother's looks and was even better than her mother. She always found it easy to win other people's favor.

My mother is usually surrounded by men who think they are handsome and have plenty of wealth and power. They want to pursue beautiful women, but they are always unsuccessful.

"Woo-woo-woo!" The little girl imitated the sound of the wind with her mouth and walked briskly, but she accidentally fell to the ground and her knees were banged red.

She cried loudly, and her mother frowned and scolded: "Stand up!"

"Mom, Xiyue is in pain." The little girl really wanted to snuggle into her mother's arms and get some comfort.

But in her memory, her mother's arms seemed so distant. At this age, she could also distinguish the joys and sorrows of adults.

"Stand up!" the mother said coldly, "You're not dead, are you? A little pain is nothing!"

The little girl endured the pain and climbed up, lowered her head and followed her mother in silence. She felt extremely aggrieved. Other children could be comforted and consoled after falling, but she was not.

She felt that her mother didn't love her as much as before, especially after her mother looked at her and felt that she looked more and more like that man.

The ink on the scroll gradually blurred, leaving only a large expanse of blue sky.

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"Mom, mom, why do other people have dads, but Xiyue doesn't?" The little girl went to school. Her friends were always picked up by their parents, but she only had her mother.

Everyone has parents, and she should have parents too. Although Lin Xiyue is only five or six years old, she is very smart. She can learn in just one day what other children take ten days to learn. She has begun to understand that her family is different from other children's.

She asked this question while crying when she was very young, but all she got was scolding and slapping. It seemed that her mother really didn't want to hear from someone.

"You don't have a father, he died a long time ago!" The young woman said coldly, "I told you not to ask this question again, so you won't have dinner today. If you ask again, you won't be able to go to school anymore."

"Oh." The little girl said with a look of grievance.

The very young child understood that there was no father in her family, and that her biological mother had a very bad relationship with the so-called father, and even had abnormal resentment towards him.

Hate the whole family. Her mother's feelings towards her are very subtle, sometimes love and sometimes hate. She bears her mother's hatred for her father because someone's blood flows in her body.

Perhaps her birth was a mistake.

The little girl thought her father had died a long time ago, but one day a man suddenly broke into her life. Her always tough mother turned pale, and that handsome face was particularly terrifying in her eyes.

The man would appear and disappear, sometimes bringing her toys and snacks, but her mother would always throw them away, absolutely forbidding her to accept those things.

She didn't like that man either. Every time he appeared, her mother and him would fight in the room. No matter how unwilling her mother was, she would be pulled into the room by her hair.

No matter how much the daughter cried, the man remained indifferent, and even disliked her noise, kicking her several times. Once, the man was furious with a dark face, and in a fit of rage, he almost strangled her to death.

From then on, she was filled with fear about the role of father and no longer had any beautiful yearning or expectation towards men.

The impression of men in her mind was really bad.

She could hear her mother's painful groans in the room, and see bruises and black eyes on her body and face as she walked out, and blood flowing down her thighs. The fairy-like mother praised by countless people was always ravaged beyond recognition, like a wandering mad woman.

And her mother's attitude towards her became even worse.

The child didn't understand why she was in such a family. She was always uneasy, always afraid, and always unhappy.

Until one day, the man no longer appeared. Because the mother cut her face with a knife, three scars appeared hideous, and she also took a lot of high-energy food, and she gained a lot of weight.

"Bitch! You were so mean in the past that you refused to live in the mansion I gave you. You couldn't even live the life of a rich wife, so you have to move out on your own. You want to escape from me? You're just dreaming.

Now I am even more despicable. I have degraded myself. I am so ugly and fat. Even if I get cured, I still feel sick when I think about my current appearance!
But do you think you can escape from my grasp like this? I tell you, no matter you are dead or alive, beautiful or ugly, you are still my collection!

No one is allowed to touch the things I throw away."

Life returned to normal. The mother who had lost her beauty and figure was happy for a while, and the little girl also felt the mother's love. They were content with their ordinary days, without being disturbed by outsiders and harassed by men who were hunting for beauty.

But this time did not last long, because a rumor spread in the neighborhood where they lived, and life immediately became difficult for the mother and daughter.

"Have you heard that? That woman was raped. The story was widely spread at the time. She looked so proud and pure on weekdays, but she was defiled by the rapist."

"Such a dirty woman, yet she doesn't pay any attention to the men pursuing her. I really don't know where she gets the confidence from!"

"Look at her now. She has no face and no figure. She doesn't even have the qualifications to be a femme fatale."

"I really don't know where she got the nerve to give birth to that bastard. Both mother and daughter are bitches. Now when I see them, I feel disgusted!"

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These words cut into the hearts of the mother and daughter like a knife. There were too many women who were jealous of them, and their vicious words made it impossible for them to move forward.

Lin Xiyue, who already had few friends, now had even fewer friends. She had no one to play with at school and had to endure some strange looks.

She stopped going to school and stayed at home alone. She was very talented and her self-study was much better than what she learned in school. Her capable mother did some work online and her income was much better than that of ordinary people, so she had no problems in life.

In the blink of an eye, Lin Xiyue was seven years old. Her mother taught her to cultivate, to play the piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and to cultivate her character and mind, because her mother also understood that this was her child, and except for the fact that she was born in a mistake, she had no fault. She had no reason to bear all this and could not let her child continue to be unhappy.

"Xiyue, don't pay attention to what those people say. You have never done anything bad. Your heart is pure, so as long as you are not wrong, no matter what others do, it has nothing to do with you."

"Do you remember the lotus I took you to see? It grows out of the mud but remains unstained. It is immune to all evils and can remain clean even in the mud.

The lotus flowers are still so self-sustaining despite being stained by dust, mud and water as long as the rain washes them away. Don’t just go with the flow just because you are in such an environment.”

“You have to understand that beauty can sometimes be a disaster, especially when you don’t have enough strength to protect yourself.

If beauty is a kind of wealth, then you are born rich enough to rival a country. My mother suffered misfortune because of her beauty and became the beast's private part. I only hate my past appearance.

You should take my experience as a warning.”

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Not long after, her mother sold all her assets and moved with her to Huaqian City on Saturn. She deliberately made her ugly and rarely went out, so they lived in peace.

But such a jewel like her would still often get into trouble. Lin Xiyue finally understood why her mother said that her natural appearance was a disaster.

She is unwilling to go out and communicate with others. She is used to loneliness and dullness. Perhaps others cannot bear to stay in one place for a long time, but she can sit for several days and remain calm.

Gradually, she found it difficult to adapt to city life. She couldn't communicate, didn't know how to read people's expressions, and didn't know how to socialize. When habits became character, and when character became life, she was as cold as the moon.

"I often hate my origin and family, so I feel lonely. I often hate the chaos and confusion of the outside world. As soon as I get close to other people's bustle, it becomes my hell. There is no country suitable for me."

Lin Xiyue knew that her mother had a kind heart, but her life was too bad, half of her life was in chaos, and all the good things were torn to pieces.

She seldom went out, had no friends or close friends, and was only accompanied by books and spiritual practice. In the blink of an eye, she was already fifteen years old, and most of her girlhood had passed.

She had long been out of tune with the outside world and found it difficult to fit in.

Until one day, this kind of life came to an end.

　I almost died suddenly today. I was really scared. I lay down for five or six hours but still couldn't recover. I was dizzy, had tinnitus, headache, and chills all over my body. I was terrified by all the negative buffs. Everyone must stay up late less and exercise more, beware of colds and maintain good living habits, so that you can have a good body. This is a big warning from my body about health problems. You need to pay more attention to it, and everyone should also take it as a warning.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)