Chapter 895: Tenderness and Chivalry (Part )

"My sword?" Liu Xunyi stared at Qin Wei's sword with a dull expression, muttering to himself as if crying and laughing, "A person like me... is he worthy of owning a sword? A person like me, who can't defend his country, can't punish evil and promote good, can't keep the woman he loves, can't keep the brother he trusts, and tried his best to do his best for the people of the world, but in the end he became the 'world's number one villain' with unforgivable and indescribable crimes. The court regards me as a traitor, and the martial arts world regards me as a traitor. A person like me... what's the point of living in this world?"

"Liu Xunyi, who do you live for?" Xunzhen's tone was calm and even. "They say you are a traitor and a traitor, so you are really the 'worst villain in the world'? They say you have committed ten unforgivable crimes, so you are really guilty of heinous crimes and have done nothing wrong? The Liu Xunyi I know is not a follower of others, but a maverick. He never follows the crowd or does what others say. If others don't believe in you, don't you believe in yourself? If you admit that you have done many evil things, why don't you use this sword to commit suicide now? It will also save us from hiding from you all day and living in fear."

"Xunzhen, I am alone and all enemies will die sooner or later. You can save me temporarily, but you can't save me forever. Instead, you are sinking yourself into a quagmire and causing trouble for no reason. Why bother?"

"Who said I want to save you forever?" Xunzhen raised his eyebrows and said teasingly, "You and I have no relatives or friends, so wouldn't it be unfair for me to save you forever?"

"This……"

"Why don't you call me 'aunt'? Maybe I'll consider it."

Looking at Xunzhen who was acting so serious, Liu Xunyi was overwhelmed with emotions and didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

He really didn't understand. He was speaking from the bottom of his heart and was feeling very sad. He wanted to have a heart-to-heart talk with Xunzhen about the troubles in life, but unexpectedly, Xunzhen not only refused to comfort him, but also deliberately teased him.

Could it be that... I look like I'm joking? Or is my experience a huge joke?

"Ugh!"

Thinking of this, the depressed Liu Xunyi couldn't help but let out a sigh and slowly closed his eyes, as if he didn't want to argue with Xunzhen anymore.

Seeing Liu Xunyi's depression, Xunzhen did not feel guilty at all. Instead, he burst into laughter and said jokingly, "Why? Our Liu Zhishan, Master Liu, is not only physically weak, but also mentally vulnerable?"

"Miss Xunzhen, how have I ever offended you? Even if I have, now I have tasted retribution. Could you please show some leniency and let me go?" Liu Xunyi felt both annoyed and helpless at Xunzhen's constant sarcasm.

"It's not that I won't let you go, but that you won't let yourself go." Suddenly, Xunzhen's expression changed, and the playfulness on his face disappeared instantly, replaced by a deep solemnity, "Liu Xunyi, do you know who the most terrible enemy in the world is? It's yourself! It's not terrible to be enemies with the whole world, and it's not terrible to be chased by thousands of troops. The real terrible thing is that you are afraid before the battle, and you are not defeated by the opponent, but you are suppressed by your own fear and can't raise your head. Who said that if you are alone, all the enemies in the world will die? Whether you can turn things around depends on whether you have enough Strong faith and resilience that grows stronger with each setback, rather than a wanted notice or a hunting order. Moreover, you keep saying that you are alone, so what does it mean that I traveled thousands of miles to Lin'an to save you? What does it mean that Miss Pan, a weak woman, risked her life to return to Lin'an alone? What about Qin Ku, who helped you hide the truth behind the scenes? You only said that you couldn't keep the woman you loved and the brothers you trusted, but ignored us, your friends who risked the world's disapproval to share the joys and sorrows with you. Such a selfish Liu Xunyi... is he really worthy of talking about the world and the morality of the martial arts world?"

"I……"

"Who are you living for?" Xunzhen ignored the confused Liu Xunyi and asked again, "Are you born spineless? Not only can you not survive without a backer, you can't even stand up?"

"I……"

"In Tianji Pavilion, you relied on Zhao Yuan, and you could charge into battle without hesitation. In Jianghu, you relied on Luo Tianjin, and you could laugh off being torn to pieces. In Mobei, you relied on the court of the Song Dynasty, and you could go through fire and water without hesitation. The reason why you were fearless at that time was because you knew that there were people backing you up, and even if the sky fell, you could hide under their wings and live a miserable life. Now, you are gradually losing all your support, and your backbone has collapsed. You are panicked, timid, and afraid. You can't find your place, and even the meaning of life. You began to panic and timid, but you didn't want to admit your failure, so you bit the bullet and pretended to be fearless to return to Lin'an, determined to die together with the deputy envoy of the Privy Council. It seems to be righteous, but in fact You use death to escape. You regard death as a panacea to escape reality, as a shortcut to escape from the sea of ​​suffering. "Xunzhen did not shy away from revealing the scars in Liu Xunyi's heart, and said righteously, "The more this is the case, the more it proves that you are afraid. What you fear is not death, but loss! What you fear is not the enemy's invasion, but being isolated and helpless! What you fear is not the thorns ahead, but the lack of retreat! Admit it! Twenty years of 'bullying others with power' have made you like and rely on this feeling of begging for mercy and kneeling for survival. When someone asks you to kneel, you feel at ease, brave, and brave, but now suddenly you are asked to stand up, but you are terrified and trembling, not only your heart is scratched, your courage is lost, and even your hands and feet... You don't know where to put, right or not?"

Xunzhen's words were like enlightenment, which completely calmed Liu Xunyi's restless heart.

Liu Xunyi was stunned, silently recalling his past and examining his heart. In a trance, even he himself could not see the real self, but Xunzhen's words analyzed him vividly and clearly.

The haze and gloom hidden in his heart, liver, spleen, lungs, and kidneys were mercilessly smashed out by Xunzhen. The bloody desire mixed with the selfishness that he was unwilling to admit was exposed in broad daylight, making him feel unprecedented shame and regret. "In the final analysis, the Liu Xunyi of the past was not the real Liu Xunyi at all. Your courage, chivalry, iron will, and loyalty are actually illusions. They are the duties and missions given to you by your official position in the court and your status in the martial arts world. They are the courage and bravery lent to you by people like Zhao Yuan and Luo Tianjin, not the true face of Liu Xunyi." Xunzhen was relentless, his attitude became tougher, and his words became sharper. "The real you is what you are now, with no ambition, sentimental, complaining about the world, and belittling yourself..."

"enough!"

The ridiculed Liu Xunyi finally couldn't hold back his indignation, and supported his body with a strong will that refused to give in. Even though he was dizzy and sweating, he still stubbornly looked into the eyes of Xunzhen, who was neither humble nor arrogant, and said intermittently: "I just don't want to save my life, not complaining about the world as you said..."

"You don't have to make excuses for your cowardice, because that will only make people laugh at you." Xunzhen said contemptuously, "If you are really upright and unyielding, you should live for yourself and let others bow down in front of you, instead of you begging for food from others. If I were you, not only would I not seek death, but I would do everything I could to survive. Because only if I am alive can those who hurt me be terrified and unable to sleep or eat. Only if I am alive can I kill my enemies and avenge my previous shame. I want to see those who hurt me kneel in front of me and cry bitterly, kowtow and beg for mercy. I want those who deceived me to regret their decision and regret it for the rest of their lives. As for what I lost, I will take it back at all costs. Let the world know that Liu Xunyi is not a puppet at the mercy of others, nor is he a coward who is wantonly ravaged..."

"Do you think I am willing to accept my fate? Do you think I have no fighting spirit? Do you think I don't want to resist?" Facing Xunzhen's aggressive pressure, Liu Xunyi finally spoke out his inner obsession, "I want to! I want it all the time! I want it more than anyone else! But what about the reality? I don't have the destiny to turn disaster into blessing, nor do I have the ability to turn the world around. I can't even beat Qin Wei, so how can I beat the Deputy Envoy of the Privy Council? How can I beat the emperor and the court? As for Qingfeng who controls the Central Plains martial arts world, there is a huge difference between me and him, a world of difference."

At this point, Liu Xunyi couldn't help but laugh at himself, and said bitterly: "You may think that I am not ruthless enough, not cunning enough... I admit that I am not cold-blooded enough compared to them. But can I really turn defeat into victory by relying on ruthlessness and cunning? In the face of the inevitable trend, in the face of the court and the martial arts world sharing the same hatred and jointly suppressing the enemy, how much trouble can I, alone, stir up even if I have great abilities?"

"I can help you!" Seeing that Liu Xunyi's heart had been opened, Xunzhen took advantage of the situation and said, "As long as you want, I can not only help you come back to life, but also help you avenge your humiliation and make a comeback."

"You?" Liu Xunyi was secretly shocked and asked suspiciously, "First you risked your life to save me, and now you generously help me. What is your purpose? If I remember correctly, our last days in the Xianwang Mansion were not pleasant..."

"The past is like smoke, why mention it again? Liu Xunyi, I only want to ask you one question tonight, and I hope you can answer me honestly." Xunzhen looked around and talked about other things calmly.

"What... do you want to ask?" Seeing Xunzhen's serious expression, Liu Xunyi couldn't help but feel nervous.

"Do you want to clear your name? Do you want to seek revenge? Do you want to... take back the woman you love?"

"hiss!"

Just these words made Liu Xunyi's face change immediately. An uncontrollable excitement surged into his heart, making him feel chest tightness and shortness of breath, and coughing violently.

"Xunzhen, can you...really help me?" Having regained his faith, Liu Xunyi looked at Xunzhen in disbelief as he vowed.

"I will keep my word and never break it!" Xunzhen was confident and spoke with a strong voice, "But right now... you have to do one thing well."

"what's up?"

"Don't have any more thoughts of committing suicide! From now on, you must not only survive, but also live a better life!"

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(End of this chapter)