Chapter 693: Shame on Myself (I)

In an instant, countless past events came to his mind, and every detail of the past appeared in Liu Xunyi's mind one by one.

When facing the enemy, they shared the same hatred and depended on each other for life and death. When they were quiet, they toasted each other and made jokes. The brothers in the past were now facing each other with swords and were mortal enemies.

This bizarre illusion, as if from another world, made Liu Xunyi, Xu Heng and others stare at each other for a long time, but they were speechless.

Looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar faces in front of him, Liu Xunyi's ears seemed to once again echo with the friendly and respectful "Hei Zhishan", "Brother Liu"...

It’s a pity that Liu Xunyi will never be able to see pure and innocent smiles on their faces again.

At this moment, Liu Xunyi's heart was filled with mixed feelings. He did not dare to face the Xianwang Mansion today, and even more so, he did not dare to face the Xianwang Mansion disciples who had followed his lead and obeyed his orders.

Shame, regret, self-blame, helplessness... a thousand feelings flooded into his heart all at once, making him anxious and confused.

Liu Xunyi wished that nothing had happened, and that the current situation was just a dream. When he woke up, he was still the black fan of the Xianwang Mansion. Luo Tianjin was still playing chess and chatting with Xie Xuan in the study. Xu Heng and Ling Qing were still in high spirits in the East Hall, bickering and making jokes. The disciples of the lower three sects were still in groups of three or five, playing and fighting...

However, this feeling can be recalled, but it was already gone at that time.

Now Liu Xunyi even wishes that he had never stepped into the world of martial arts and had never met Luo Tianjin and the people in front of him.

At least, if we don’t know each other, we won’t hurt each other.

The silent confrontation seemed to last only a moment, yet it seemed as if thousands of years had passed.

When Liu Xunyi was trying to suppress the complex emotions in his heart and was about to speak with difficulty, Xu Heng and Ling Qing were already filled with grief and anger, with tears streaming down their faces.

"You guys..." Liu Xunyi mustered up the courage to speak slowly. Suddenly, he felt his throat tighten and his lips and teeth trembled uncontrollably. "Why are you here..."

"Liu Xunyi!"

Before he finished speaking, a sharp voice filled with shame and anger suddenly sounded from behind Liu Xunyi.

Hearing this, Liu Xunyi's heart seemed to be grasped tightly by someone. He subconsciously turned around to look back, but he saw the gloomy Murong Bai standing there with a gun in his hand, blocking his way out.

"Seventh...Seventh Master..."

"I don't deserve it! I can't bear your calling me 'Seventh Master'." Facing Liu Xunyi's astonishment, Murong Bai's eyes turned cold, and he said with a hint of anger and laughter, "You... just call me by my name!"

It was just a simple sentence, but it struck Liu Xunyi's heart like a bolt of lightning, causing his body to tremble and the bitterness and desolation to become even more unforgettable.

Once upon a time, Murong Bai admired Liu Xunyi very much. He spoke well of him in front of Luo Tianjin and Ling Xiaoxiao countless times, and even did not hesitate to offend people like Jiang Yiwei and Huang Yulang. He protected him everywhere and even covered up his mistakes.

But Murong Bai never expected that the "rising star" he strongly recommended turned out to be a complete traitor. Not only did he deceive everyone, he even killed Luo Tianjin who had done him a favor.

The truth, like a poisonous thorn, pierced deep into Murong Bai's heart. The pain, suffering, sorrow, hatred, grief and anger were far greater than his near-death injuries.

Sometimes, he would rather die than endure this betrayal and letdown.

"Before coming here, even before I saw you, I had countless things to say to you." Murong Bai's voice was as flat as a pool of stagnant water, and his attitude was frighteningly calm. "I want to ask you, the Palace Master treated you with great kindness, why did you betray him? The disciples of the Xianwang Palace have no grudges against you, why did you harm them? Even if you are a member of the court, even if you are acting on orders, even if you have a thousand or ten thousand reasons... but people are all made of flesh and blood, how can you be so hard-hearted and indifferent? Liu Xunyi, Liu Xunyi, ask yourself, if it weren't for the Palace Master, "After being so tolerant and merciful to you time and again, you have already become a dead bone in the grave. How could you have survived until today? Why can the Lord tolerate you again and again, but you can't show mercy to him? I have to say, you are really good at acting. Not only did you deceive us, but you also took advantage of our trust in you more than once to help you realize the evil intentions of the court step by step. I am ashamed, I am ashamed, I am angry, and I hate you! I wish I could tear you into pieces and scatter your bones to ashes! I wish I could dig up the graves of all your ancestors for eighteen generations and let them lie exposed in the wilderness, never to rest in peace!"

"Seventh Master..."

"It was not until the moment I saw you again that I realized that even if I said the most vicious words in the world, I couldn't express my disgust and hatred for you, not even one ten-thousandth of it." Murong Bai laughed at himself, "Scold? Insult? None of it matters anymore, because people like you have no morals at all, let alone shame. How can I expect you to feel guilty?"

Murong Bai's words were plain and even without any criticism. But to Liu Xunyi, it was like a thousand arrows piercing his heart, a slow torture, and it broke his heart and caused him unbearable pain.

"To a person like you, saying one more word is a waste of words." Murong Bai's face gradually became gloomy, and a trace of murderous intent flashed in his sharp eyes. "The only thing I should do is to use this silver spear in my hand to pierce your wolfish heart and dog lungs into pieces."

After saying that, Murong Bai gently raised the silver spear in his hand, and then quickly knocked it down, which immediately produced a clear and loud clanging sound.

Seeing this scene, Xu Heng, Ling Qing and others were all filled with grief and indignation, and their eyes looking at Liu Xunyi became more and more tangled and complicated. After all, the last time they met Liu Xunyi, the two sides were still brothers who supported each other and shared life and death.

"Today, none of you need to intervene!" Murong Bai ignored Liu Xunyi's guilty look and told Xu Heng, Ling Qing and the others, "I want to fight Liu Xunyi alone. Today, it doesn't matter who wins or who loses, it only matters life or death. Only one of us can leave alive."

"Seventh Master, you..."

"Only in this way can I make up for my debt to the Palace Master." Murong Bai raised his head to the sky, a faint tear welling up in the depths of his eyes, "In the past, it was me who tried my best to protect Liu Xunyi's loyalty and bravery in front of the Palace Master, and it was me who had been fanning the flames and even aiding the evil. Now, the Palace Master was killed by the traitor because he believed in him without a doubt. I, Murong Bai... cannot escape the blame!"

Murong Bai's righteous self-blame made Liu Xunyi feel ashamed and guilty. She really wished she could find a hole in the ground to crawl into.

"Stop talking nonsense! Liu Xunyi, draw your sword and use whatever skills you have!"

Facing Murong Bai's provocation, Liu Xunyi stood there quietly like a clay sculpture, unable to move for a long time.

He could draw his sword against anyone, except Murong Bai. This was because Murong Bai had shown favors to Liu Xunyi more than once, and believed in him without reservation. Based on this favor alone, Liu Xunyi could never become his enemy.

Luo Tianjin died because of him, which was a huge mistake and he regretted it so much. If Liu Xunyi attacked Murong Bai again today, it would be a mistake on top of a mistake, and there would be no way to save him.

"Liu Xunyi, draw your sword!"

"Pfft!"

Facing Murong Bai's murderous intent and repeated urging, Liu Xunyi did not show any resistance or escape. Instead, he made up his mind, bent his knees, and knelt on the ground in front of everyone's stunned gazes, crying silently, and said word by word: "Liu Xunyi is ungrateful and repays kindness with resentment. His crime is unforgivable. I am willing to... die!"

At this moment, Liu Xunyi was not pretending, nor was he pretending to be pitiful, but was sincerely seeking death.

Firstly, he betrayed the Prince Xian's Mansion and indirectly caused the death of Luo Tianjin, which went against his principles as a human being and he was tormented by the reproach of his conscience.

Secondly, after returning to Lin'an, instead of receiving the approval of the court, he was suspected, ignored, bullied, imprisoned, and even hostile everywhere, which made him disheartened and regretful.

Third, his most trusted brother and his most beloved woman, one sold out for fame, the other was heartless and broke off relations. Even the simple-minded Zhao Xie was hypocritical to him. The pain of being deserted by his friends and family, the pain of being alone, made him lose all desire to live, and he only wanted to die.

Looking around the world, either you are an enemy who wants to kill you, or you are a villain who is deliberately plotting against you, and the rest are strangers who are gloating over your misfortune.

In this vast world, where can I find a fellow traveler? Where can I find a close friend? Where can I find someone I can trust?
Liu Xunyi asked himself that he had no close friends in the world and that there was no value in living. He was tired, bored, and fed up. It was enough. It would be better to die, firstly to make up for his debt to Luo Tianjin, and secondly... to seek relief.

There is no greater sorrow than a dead heart. At this moment, Liu Xunyi's face was filled with a sad smile of a dead heart, as if he was mocking his own sad situation, and also as if he was mocking his own failed life.

Looking at Liu Xunyi who was willing to die, Murong Bai, who was determined, hesitated. He frowned and stared at Liu Xunyi who was in a trance. He neither spoke nor made a move, but repeatedly guessed Liu Xunyi's intention in his heart.

"Seventh Master, there is no need to hesitate. I only wish to die and will never dodge!"

After saying that, Liu Xunyi tore open his collar with both hands, revealing his strong chest covered with knife and sword scars. The meaning was self-evident.

Under the surprised and hesitant gazes of the crowd, Liu Xunyi smiled indifferently, then slowly closed his eyes, with no fear on his face, and a calm mind, waiting for death.

Murong Bai was furious and said in a cold voice: "Liu Xunyi, do you think I will believe your false feelings? Do you think that if you pretend, I will be merciful and let you go?"

"No!" Liu Xunyi said righteously, "I have no other request, I just hope that Master Qi will shoot me through the heart and let me die quickly!"

"Okay, okay! Since you have this wish, I will definitely fulfill it for you!"

Before he finished speaking, Murong Bai's eyes suddenly became fierce, and the silver spear in his hand rushed out like a storm, accompanied by a whistling sound as the spear tip broke through the air. An invisible force burst out from the spear blade and hit Liu Xunyi's heart directly.

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(End of this chapter)