Chapter 329 I don’t want to hear it again

Chapter 335 I don't want to hear it again
I'm sorry to everyone that I've been missing for a while. Recently, I've been going crazy because of job hunting. Interviews, tests, failing the tests, and looking again. Oh, I feel like my whole mentality is not good. I haven't had the time to sit down and write. I just tested another company this afternoon. I feel like I'm going to sing a song for myself.

I will continue, so I took a break to post a picture. Sorry, I really don’t have much time to write recently. I will find a stable job as soon as possible and try to squeeze out time.

"Please rest assured, Miss Xiaolan is just trying to recall her past memories, which has caused a brief blockage and conflict in her brain. She will be fine after a good night's sleep. Please don't worry." After a simple diagnosis, Mary whispered to her parents.

After Xiaolan fainted, I called my mother and asked her to call Marissa. Within ten minutes, Marissa came over and diagnosed Xiaolan.

"Thank you so much, Dr. Marissa." Although my mother knew that there might be a connection between Marissa and me, she did not dare to neglect her in front of everyone.

"It's okay, I'm nearby too." Marissa smiled and shook her head. "Then I'll go back first. If you have anything, please feel free to call me." After that, Marissa gave me a slight greeting and glanced at me without anyone noticing. After seeing me nod, she left.

After seeing Mary off, my parents returned to Xiaolan's room with heavy hearts and stayed by her side, while Conan and I returned to our own rooms and started a new round of analysis.

"First, let's talk about the people involved." Conan took out his notes from last time. "Niinoho, the person who caused the whole incident, is dead. He was the first surgeon at the Touto University Surgical Hospital."

"Investigators, Officer Tomonari, subordinates, Narasawa, Shiba, Sato." I continued. "Except for Sato, the rest are dead. Tomonari had a heart attack and died during the operation. The remaining two were shot to death by the murderer. Xiaolan may have been killed by this murderer as well."

"Niino Tamaki, Niino Bao's sister, is a journalist by profession. She has a very bad opinion of her brother. She believes that her brother would never commit suicide."

"Odagiri Toshiya. He is the son of Chief Odagiri Toshiro. He had an argument with Nino Yasushi before his death. He was also one of the indirect causes of Tomonari's heart attack."

"Youcheng Zhen, the son of Officer Youcheng. He is upset that Officer Sato and others did not send his father to the hospital in the first place." After saying that, Conan drew a circle on Youcheng Zhen's name, "Currently, only his whereabouts are unknown."

"Do you think it's him?" I asked, staring at Conan.

"Everyone is a suspect now. The criminal may be left-handed. This is the only clue we know now. Besides, all the above people are left-handed except Nino Tamaki." Conan said. "But Xiaolan's reaction today makes me suspicious."

"You mean, the reaction to the umbrella?"

"Yeah." Conan nodded. "If it was really an overreaction to the water, I could understand it, but why did he react in fear only after seeing the umbrella?"

"What if, when Xiaolan saw the murderer, the murderer was holding an umbrella?" I made a hypothesis. "For example, the reason why the smoke reaction was not detected this time was because the criminal used an umbrella to block the smoke?"

"Now that you mention it..." Conan thought with his hand on his chin. "I remember there was indeed an umbrella in the umbrella stand at the banquet."

"Want to take it back and have a look?" I suggested. "Maybe there will be some clues."

"Well, I'll go check it out tomorrow." Conan nodded. "As for you, Xiaolan's behavior today clearly shows that she has some memory of you."

"Yeah." I smiled helplessly, fell on the bed, looked at the ceiling and said silently. "I don't know why. If what happened at the party was something Xiaolan wanted to escape from, then my disappearance should also be a memory that Xiaolan needs to put away. Why does Xiaolan have an impression of me?"

"On the other hand, perhaps the memories you had with Xiaolan before you disappeared were the happiest ones?" Conan said. "Don't forget, before you disappeared, we were best friends. You and Xiaolan were siblings. Perhaps this could be the key to Xiaolan's memory recovery?"

"If I really confess like that, then the day Xiaolan regains her memory will also be the day I reveal my identity." I shook my head and rejected Conan's idea. "If I dye my hair back, my dad will immediately find out what I look like. Even if Xiaolan regains her memory, I will be dragging them all down. Xiaolan is too kind, I really can't bear to let her get involved in this mess. In fact, I feel very uncomfortable telling my mom the truth and letting her share this guilt with me."

"That's right..." Conan thought for a moment and said, "Ah... it would be nice if I could become Kudo Shinichi. That might help Ran recover her memory. Kaoru, have you and Haibara made any progress on the antidote?"

"No." I shook my head. There was progress, but I must not tell Conan, not even after such an accident. Although Shiho said that Conan could be a guinea pig, in fact, even she did not plan to use this drug for human trials right now.

"You...are you lying to me?" Conan raised his eyebrows after hearing my decisive answer.

"The doctor will bring the children to see Xiaolan tomorrow. If you don't believe me, just go and ask." I lifted the quilt and lay down. "I'm sleepy. Let's talk about it tomorrow." "Well... OK, I'll go to the banquet tomorrow morning to ask about the umbrella, and you can stay at home to receive Professor Agasa and the others." Seeing that I looked powerless, Conan had no choice but to nod and turn off the bedroom light. I lay back on my bed and closed my eyes. Soon, the only sound in the room was the sound of even breathing.

————The scent of orchids, the scent of lavender, the scent of home & the wings of angels, the wings of demons, the wings of guardians————

In the early morning, I was already asleep, but was awakened by Conan's sigh. As if to wake me up on purpose, Conan actually opened the window of the room and looked out.

"Climbing through the window in the middle of the night, do you want to jump?" I closed my eyes in anger. "If you have any ideas, I can help you."

"Xiaolan... is still awake." Conan ignored my angry words and just looked out the window at the moonlight. "Just now when I was going to the bathroom, I passed by Xiaolan's room and saw that she had woken up from her coma, but she was just sitting in a chair in a daze. I... really wanted to go in and comfort her."

"You made the right choice not to go in." I said calmly with my eyes closed. "It's so late... it's very rude to just walk into a girl's room."

"In her hand, she was holding the brooch that had faded to the extreme." Conan had no intention of arguing with me and spoke to himself.

"Hmm?" I opened my eyes. "Brooch?"

"You know, Xiaolan has been wearing the brooch you gave her that year for ten years. She only puts it away carefully when washing clothes or on special occasions." Conan looked back at me. "Xiaolan, I think... if it's possible, I just said if... I hope you can give Xiaolan some encouragement. Kudo's identity can only help Xiaolan in limited ways, and you, her biological brother, seem to be able to help her more in this regard."

"Heh... Huh..." I sat up, took a long breath, and looked at him intently. Then I lifted the quilt and walked out of the room. Turning the corner, I came to the door of Xiaolan's room. Through the crack of the door, I saw Xiaolan sitting upright in her chair, holding the brooch in both hands, with unspeakable sadness in her eyes. Her appearance was really distressing. With a slight sigh, I gently knocked on Xiaolan's door.

"Come in." Xiaolan turned her gaze away from the brooch and spoke subconsciously, forgetting that it was already early in the morning. When she saw that pale golden figure walking in, her sad eyes turned gentle again. "Xiaoxun?"

"Xiaolan...sister." I stared at the girl who was still forcing herself to smile. "Your body hasn't recovered yet. It's so late, why aren't you sleeping yet?"

"Hmm..." Xiaolan shook her head. "I just woke up not long ago, and I can't sleep." After saying that, Xiaolan lowered her head again. Her fingers gently lingered on the orchid brooch. "I...seem to have remembered a little bit about him."

"Him?" I raised my eyebrows slightly.

"My brother, your namesake." Xiaolan's eyes flashed with tears. "But it was very rare... only a fragment. I couldn't see his appearance clearly, my brother's face... seemed to be covered by a light. But I remember the feeling at that moment... It felt like I was going to lose him forever."

"Lan..." Instantly, an indelible pain surged into my heart. I remember that scene, it was the moment of the car accident. After I pushed Xiaolan out... It was after that that I forgot about the girl in front of me for a full ten years. And at this moment, the pointer of fate seemed to turn again, making Xiaolan deeply trapped.

"Fortunately... here is his photo." Xiaolan reached out to our family photo. "But... Dad said he has... I'm so scared, so scared that I will forget him again."

"Xiaolan...you..." Seeing Xiaolan's appearance, my heart began to aches again like a knife.

"I forgot my father and my mother. But only him... I have an impression of him. Only him, I have a deep obsession... Although I can't remember what he looks like. I can't overlap the person in the photo with the impression in my mind. But... I don't want to forget him just like that, I... I want him to stay in my mind forever. But... what should I do?" As Xiaolan spoke, she became excited.

"Hey, Xiaoxun. Brother... he should still be alive, right? He should still be alive, right? What should I do? I... I can't remember more! Why... why on earth is this? I don't want to forget him, I don't want to!!!" At this moment, the tears in the eyes broke free from the last bit of restraints and dripped down Xiaolan's cheeks onto the table.

"..." I didn't know how to comfort Xiaolan after what she did. All I could do was reach out and pull her arm. Despite the huge height difference, I still accurately grasped Xiaolan's movements and let her head rest on my shoulder accurately.

"Cry." These were the only words I could say. "Cry... Everything will be fine. Your memory will return soon."

I have forgotten my identity and abandoned my age. Now all I have is a girl venting her inner grievances and sadness. Even though the sobbing sound is not loud, I really don't want to hear that sound again.

"Lan... I will make you remember me. Including me. One day, I will come back." A glimmer of light flashed in the palm of my hand behind Xiaolan's back, and a lavender brooch that was also severely faded fell into my hand. The next second, it disappeared into the depths of the faint light.

(End of this chapter)