Chapter 207 I don’t regret it
Li Yan smiled, turned off the computer, said goodbye and left the school gate. She even took a walk to the store outside and bought two cans of Coke and a bag of potato chips. After thinking for a while, she bought two sausages.

Then he easily climbed over the wall shared by the two schools.

I guess no one has ever thought that there would be students from these two schools communicating over the wall...

As promised, Lin Zhiyuan was already waiting in a brighter basketball court.

"Why are you acting like a thief?" Li Yan said with a smile.

Lin Zhiyuan finally calmed down, "It's already nine o'clock, what if the teacher finds out?"

"If the sky falls, I will hold it up."

Li Yan found a seat in the center of the court and sat down.

The weather is fine today. It's the end of March, the temperature is rising, and the evening breeze is quite comfortable.

"This position," Lin Zhiyuan smiled, "is worthy of Master Yan."

"It's a bit more open, so you can look at the sky." Li Yan handed over the sausage, "It's been a while since I wasted time with you like this."

"I'm flattered, Young Master Yan." Lin Zhiyuan also sat down and ate the sausage with such relish, "I hardly ate snacks since I entered junior high school."

"And Coke and potato chips."

"Hey, what's wrong with Master Yan? Do you want to ask me for something?"

"No." Li Yan hit Xiaopang.

It's easy to see that Li Yan is worried.

Xiaopang opened two bottles of Coke and clinked the cans with Li Yan. A few drops of soda spilled out and fell to the ground, crackling and bubbling.

"Zhiyuan, why do you ask about living your life again?"

Lin Zhiyuan took a big gulp of Coke and burped again, "Tell me the truth, eh?"

"If you keep talking nonsense, I'll beat you up."

"Seeing that you are living such a wonderful life," Lin Zhiyuan chuckled, "I suddenly feel that... my life is a mess and I don't know what I am doing."

I don’t know what I’m doing…

Li Yan's thoughts suddenly crossed time and space, returning to the day of her rebirth, and to every day before that day.

When he was a top student in elementary school, the world had not yet opened up to him. He couldn't even accept that he didn't rank among the top three in the junior high school entrance exam. When he was tired of studying in junior high school, he never considered the impact of his aversion to studying. He just focused on pursuing some ideas in his heart, as if all problems could be solved at that time...

When he was in high school, he had not thought about what major to study in college, nor had he ever thought about what life would be like after he was no longer a "student".

He has always been pursuing excellence and using his talent as a shield.

Throughout college, he was struggling with internal conflicts and trying desperately to prove that he was different.

This kid, who loudly said that he was a perfectionist at a speech ceremony in junior high school, began to try to convince himself to accept mediocrity when he went to college.

While climbing up to pursue your ideals, you gradually fall into mediocrity.

When he was an intern, he once cried on an empty subway on his way home from overtime work, not because of the hard work, but because of the ordinariness.

Even the dissatisfaction with overtime work is so ordinary.

Li Yan stared at the night sky above her head in a trance. "Have you thought about what life will be like ten years from now?"

"Ten years later? That's too far away." Lin Zhiyuan shrugged and looked at the night sky. "Middle school entrance exam... College entrance exam, everyone will be graduating from college by then! I can't imagine it. Maybe if I try hard, I can just get into an ordinary first-class university and study a major that interests me."

"What happens next?"

"Uh..." Lin Zhiyuan couldn't explain it clearly, "Going to work? It feels so far away from me."

Not far away, in the day-to-day study and examinations, youth passes quickly, student days end quickly, and the stages of life always follow one after another, leaving no chance for people to breathe.

"Zhiyuan, if... I mean if," Li Yan took a sip of Coke, propped up her hands, and looked at the noisy traffic outside the quiet campus, "Like you said, you were admitted to an ordinary university and studied your favorite major, but soon you found that it was not easy to find a job, and it was not easy to make money. You always have to work overtime until late, and when you return to the rented house, you just want to rest, day after day..."

Lin Zhiyuan put down his Coke and looked at Li Yan. "Ideals have become so far away, love is hard to talk about, and there are all kinds of practical considerations for everything. Money is needed everywhere, and for money I have to work overtime all the time, and life has become very monotonous and boring. My friends all work, and we gradually communicate less and less, and you may not chat with me much... Yes, there are no major changes, nothing too unlucky, and even in the eyes of others, you may be living a good life, at least you are well fed and warmly clothed."

Li Yan suddenly paused, "But... you are unwilling to live your life in such a dull way, will you regret it?"

"Will you regret it?" Lin Zhiyuan repeated.

Li Yan looked at Xiaopang in surprise.

"Master Yan, to be honest... I don't understand what you mean by work or anything like that. Besides, my family is not short of money. If I'm not happy, I'll just go home and eat and wait for death with my dad. But if you want to say that we won't chat anymore, that's impossible."

Li Yan couldn't help laughing and patted Lin Zhiyuan on the shoulder.

It’s amazing to say, he can obviously gradually unlock related memories through contact with others.

But after hanging out with Lin Zhiyuan for such a long time, their relationship is even better than in his previous life. Until now, Xiaopang can still recall some of his past experiences with him in junior high school.

I only remember that he was still a chatterbox when he was in the first year of high school, and he would talk a lot as soon as we met.

Although we rarely met at that time, I have forgotten what we said.

Is there a time limit for this memory recovery technique?

"Master Yan, what's wrong with you?"

"Ok?"

"Hearing you say such negative things, and even saying that you'll hate studying later... Don't scare me."

Li Yan smiled, sighed, and lay down on the court. All he saw was the starry sky.

If I could live my life over again... Is it true that making up for regrets is such an obsession in a person's life?

Now he no longer needs to persuade himself to embrace mediocrity, no longer needs to persuade himself to accept ordinariness.

He can take big strides towards his ideal until it is within reach.

"I won't regret it." Lin Zhiyuan suddenly added, unpacking some potato chips, "It's rare to live once. If you really think I've lived a mess, then... then I'll start studying hard from now on! I've been reborn, and I can be considered to have lived my life again, hehe."

Li Yan just stared straight at the starry sky and even wanted to reach out his hand.

In the previous life, I used my talent as a shell and just wanted to escape from the world.

He can embrace the world in this life.

Live twice, don't have any regrets.

A gust of evening breeze blew, and the bag of potato chips that Xiaopang had just put down was blown over by the wind, shocking him and making him panic.

Li Yan came back to her senses and found that she had tear marks without knowing when.

It’s hard to tell why he shed tears, whether it was the emotion for his past life or the joy for his rebirth, in short, he had reconciled with his future self.

Ding!
[Psychology +4, third-level skill, total 23; Comprehension +3, fourth-level skill, total 45]

Studying oneself is also an important part of psychology. As for this understanding...

Do you understand yourself?
Self-analysis and reconciliation are indeed difficult subjects for everyone.

Even if Li Yan reconciled with a future him that was left with only a bunch of emotions.

You blow your evening breeze, and I embrace my morning light.

Fortunately, Xiaopang was looking for potato chips on the ground. Li Yan pretended to be blinded by the wind and wiped it quickly.

Lin Zhiyuan was still lamenting about wasting a bag of potato chips, Li Yan patted him on the shoulder and said:
"If it were me, I would regret it. So, I won't let myself regret it."

"That's right, Master Yan. You really scared me to death. But what's wrong with your voice? Do you have a cold?"

"Uh……"

(End of this chapter)